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Chapters (86)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Contents
  5. Notes and Acknowledgments
  6. Selected Poems
  7. Learning to Talk
  8. The Cookie Jar
  9. Things Thought Through
  10. On Balance
  11. Decomposition
  12. Psycho Ecology
  13. Life of the Spirit
  14. Aweigh
  15. Tao-to-Tao
  16. To Be
  17. Practice, Practice, Practice
  18. Wisdom and Happiness
  19. Red Sails
  20. Squall & Commotion
  21. Slow Learner
  22. Bathing Joe
  23. Mahogany China
  24. The First Cut Is the Deepest
  25. Waiting for Houdini to Come Up
  26. The Countessa
  27. Venison Stew
  28. Winter Song
  29. On Humor: On Mating Donkeys and Onions
  30. Watering the Gardenon the Hottest Day of the Summer
  31. Palms to the Moon
  32. A Firmer Grasp of the Obvious
  33. The Work of Art
  34. Steelhead Fishing, Smith River, January
  35. The Third Bank of the River
  36. Green Side Up
  37. One Thing After Another
  38. Unnatural Selections: A Meditation uponWitnessing a Bullfrog Fucking a Rock
  39. Fishing Devil’s Hole at the Peak of Spring
  40. Getting After It
  41. How to Catch the Biggest Fish
  42. Hard Work
  43. There It Is
  44. Knowing When to Stop
  45. Vacation Expenses
  46. Basic Precepts and Avuncular Advicefor Young Men
  47. Killing
  48. Death and Dying
  49. New Poems
  50. The Banker
  51. The Real Last Words of Billy the Kid
  52. The Moving Part of Motion
  53. How About
  54. Necessary Angels
  55. Prayer Bones
  56. Magic and Beauty
  57. Day Moon
  58. Karma Bird
  59. The Tunnel
  60. Hagerty Wrecks Another Company Truck
  61. Obsession
  62. Love Find
  63. Flux
  64. Thanks for the Dance
  65. The Stone
  66. Woman in a Room Full of Rubber Numbers
  67. Reason to Live
  68. Scratch
  69. Salvage
  70. An Epithalamium for Victoria
  71. Falling into Place
  72. Play-By-Play
  73. Job Application
  74. The Mouth of the River
  75. The Prior and Subsequent Heavens
  76. Old Growth
  77. Three Ways to Get the Carrot on the Stick
  78. Eurydice Ascending
  79. The Drought of ’76
  80. True Account of the Saucer People
  81. About Time
  82. Smithereens
  83. Jack o’ Hearts Shopping Mortmart
  84. Holy Shit
  85. Also by Jim Dodge
  86. Copyright

I also offer special thanks to my editors, Morgan Entrekin at Grove/Atlantic and Jamie Byng of Canongate for their steadfast support of my literary work.

Melanie Jackson, my agent, deserves particular mention for her unstinting efforts and merciful acumen on my behalf.

Finally, my deepest gratitude to family and friends for their unflagging faith, encouragement, and forbearance.

Selected Poems

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Short Prose

Learning to Talk

Whenever Jason said “beeber” for “beaver”

or “skirl” for “squirrel”

I secretly loved it.

They’re better words:

The busy beeber beebing around;

the grey squirrel’s tail

like a skirl of smoke along a maple branch.

I never told him he was saying

their names “wrong,”

though I did pronounce them conventionally.

One time he noticed, and explained,

“‘Beeber’ is how I say it.”

“Great,” I told him, “whatever

moves you.”

But within a week

he was pronouncing both “properly.”

I did my duty

and I’m sorry.

Farewell Beeber and Skirl.

So much beauty lost to understanding.

The Cookie Jar

Coddington Mall was clogged with Christmas shoppers as I waited in line at the Cookie Jar, a bakery devoted to my favorite confection.

It was just after noon–lunch break–and a single clerk was left to work the counter, a young woman with a strained, scattered smile. She was working as fast as she could, but the line moved slowly. I was passing the time with the sports page, idly considering whether the 49ers were worth $100 and three points against the Rams, when my attention was drawn to the elderly woman in front of me in line. By her stoop and wrinkles I figured she was in her early 70s, or a hard 65 at least. She was wearing a grey dress, but it was nearly obscured by a heavy black sweater that hung almost to the hemline. She was leaning forward, weight on her cane, her nose to the display case, examining the cookies with the calm, fierce attention of a hawk. Taken by the force of her concentration, I folded the sports page and said pleasantly, “It’s always tough to decide.”

Her gaze didn’t flicker.

I couldn’t blame her for ignoring me. Why should an old woman, in a culture of muggers, rapists, and rip-off artists, encourage the idle conversation of some bearded and obviously half-demented hippie from the hills, where he probably grew tons of marijuana and did Lord-knows-what to the sheep. I felt the little wash of sadness that comes when your good intentions are blanked by cultural circumstances. I didn’t persist.

When it was the old woman’s turn, in a thick Slavic accent she ordered three chocolate chip cookies. “The big ones,” she specified, tapping the glass to indicate her choice.

The harried clerk dutifully plucked out three of the saucer-sized cookies with a confectioner’s tissue. I noticed one of the cookies had a small chunk broken off its side. So did the old woman: “None that are broke!” she commanded.