Erna and her mother will be here soon, to take him from me. We’ve all agreed it’s better that I stay behind. They will travel with him, together with Josef’s children, Lena’s boy and five others – ten in all – to Berlin, where the children alone will board a train to Hamburg. Then onto Rotterdam and to Harwich. They will be in the company of hundreds of other lost and confused Jewish children, sent away by desperate parents, bound for the safety of England. Walter will meet them at Harwich and take the five children to their new home.

If only I could go with them and never come back.

But the doors to the rest of the world have been slammed shut, and only a trickle of children are allowed to dash through the last tiny crack before England’s door closes too. Stanley must go now, and I will have to take my chances here.

I’ve written his name and his father’s name on the label to go around his neck, like a parcel to be sent in the post. His papers are prepared, stamped and waiting with his little case of clothes, nappies, tins of evaporated milk and bottles, and a cardigan of mine which will smell of me. It might help calm him if he becomes agitated. I wonder how Stanley’s fifteen-year-old cousin, who has never met him, and who is to care for him on the journey, will cope.

I must have faith that all will go well.

Because faith is all I have left.

There is one more thing which must go into the case. I open the drawer and take my journal, filled to the very last page with my neat handwriting. I place it carefully beneath the clothes. If the worst should happen, and I am never reunited with my son, this is his story. Everything is here, the best and the worst of me. It will be up to Walter and Anna if they ever decide to share it with him.

There is a knock at the door.

‘Come in,’ I say, not taking my eyes off Stanley.

‘Hello,’ Erna says, and comes to stand next to me. ‘It’s time,’ she says quietly.

I nod, but don’t move.

‘My father is waiting outside the front. We must meet the other children at the station in half an hour, if we’re to make the first train to Berlin,’ she adds. ‘I’m sorry, Hetty, but we really don’t have much time.’

‘Yes. I know,’ I say. ‘Just give me one minute. I’ll bring him down.’

She nods and closes the door behind her.