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Chapters (47)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Anna Bell
  3. Also by Anna Bell
  4. About the Author
  5. Note to Readers
  6. Dedication
  7. Chapter 1
  8. Chapter 2
  9. Chapter 3
  10. Chapter 4
  11. Chapter 5
  12. Chapter 6
  13. Chapter 7
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. Chapter 27
  34. Chapter 28
  35. Chapter 29
  36. Chapter 30
  37. Chapter 31
  38. Chapter 32
  39. Chapter 33
  40. Chapter 34
  41. Chapter 35
  42. Chapter 36
  43. Chapter 37
  44. Acknowledgements
  45. Extract
  46. Prologue
  47. About the Publisher

‘That’s right, you had those scratches down your back.’ I can see it so clearly in my mind.

‘They were just long nails,’ says Joel, shaking his head. ‘You’ve blown this way out of proportion.’

‘I looked like I’d been mauled by a tiger. I couldn’t take my shirt off outside for a week; my tan totally faded.’

‘Didn’t you still sleep with her a few times after that?’ Joel rolls his eyes and tops up his drink.

Soph starts to cry-laugh.

‘Did I? I think I had Stockholm syndrome. But hey, why am I the only one that’s getting dragged through all this? That summer we were all guilty of some shockingly bad lapses in judgement.’

I find myself looking at Joel and he stares hard back at me, causing me to shiver.

‘Soph, what about the time you—’ starts Douglas.

‘No, don’t tell that story,’ she says, holding her hands up.

‘You don’t know what I was going to say.’

‘But I bet it was nothing that I’d want Brett to overhear.’

‘Are my ears burning?’

I turn towards the house and my mouth drops open. All this time I’ve been curious to meet the man who tamed Sophie. I imagined he’d have shaggy hair, an old band T-shirt and sleeves of tattoos, exactly the type she used to go for, but I couldn’t be more wrong. He’s wearing long blue shorts and a fitted floral shirt. He’s cleanly shaven with neatly styled blond hair and not a tattoo in sight.

‘Sorry, everyone. Late night last night. I was playing a proms in the park.’

I’m stunned; I’d assumed when Soph said that he was a musician that he was in a band, not a classical musician.

‘I did tell him that he didn’t need to get up early with Alfie this morning.’

‘You needed your sleep,’ he says, giving her a quick kiss, before making the rounds. He shakes the boys’ hands and then turns to me.

‘Ah, you must be Edie, so nice to have you here.’ He gives me air kisses on both cheeks. ‘Now, what didn’t Soph want me to hear?’

The evening passes in a blur of stories and half-baked memories interchanged with anecdotes from the others’ meet-ups over the years. I try to ignore the little pangs of jealousy at how well they all still know each other, thinking about how, if things had been different, I might have been there too.

Alfie’s gone to bed, and we’re still sitting outside. Brett’s got the firepit going and we’re all wrapped up in Soph’s blankets as, despite the sunshine this afternoon, it’s still chilly in the evening.

Joel and I haven’t spoken to each other since our interaction earlier. We’ve tried to ignore one another as much as we can, which is fine by me.