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Chapters (47)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Anna Bell
  3. Also by Anna Bell
  4. About the Author
  5. Note to Readers
  6. Dedication
  7. Chapter 1
  8. Chapter 2
  9. Chapter 3
  10. Chapter 4
  11. Chapter 5
  12. Chapter 6
  13. Chapter 7
  14. Chapter 8
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Chapter 10
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Chapter 12
  19. Chapter 13
  20. Chapter 14
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. Chapter 27
  34. Chapter 28
  35. Chapter 29
  36. Chapter 30
  37. Chapter 31
  38. Chapter 32
  39. Chapter 33
  40. Chapter 34
  41. Chapter 35
  42. Chapter 36
  43. Chapter 37
  44. Acknowledgements
  45. Extract
  46. Prologue
  47. About the Publisher

‘Definitely, I think my liver had enough of a pounding the other night.’

‘Mine too.’

He holds his beer bottle, tilting towards me. ‘To one of not many.’

I clink the bottle back as we toast, and I can’t help hoping that we’re worrying about nothing.

There’s still no sign of Douglas by the time that nightfall takes a grip of the campsite. Joel and I crack and have a takeaway pizza, which we eat back at the lodge with a cup of tea. We’re both doing our best not to outwardly worry about what his no-show means for him, and how it’s left us here just the two of us. When Joel starts to pace the lodge I suggest we head out to the entertainment centre.

Joel tries Douglas one last time before we go in, worried that he won’t hear his phone over the music of ‘Daz’s Disco’, but it goes straight to voicemail again. At first when he got his voicemail we’d thought it was a good sign, assuming it was because he had a dodgy signal on the train, but it’s been like that for over an hour.

‘Do you think I should phone Suz and see if she knows what’s going on?’ asks Joel.

‘Wouldn’t that only worry her? He’s not that late. He could have got stuck for a while at Bournemouth trying to change trains or it might have broken down.’

‘You’re right.’ He sighs deeply. ‘Bloody hell, do you think this is what it’s like to be a parent?’

‘I imagine it’s worse. We just have to remember that Douglas is a grown man. He’s probably just run out of battery.’

He nods and we head inside. Daz’s Disco is everything that you would expect from a holiday park. Disco lights pulsing, overly cheesy music. Vanilla Ice is pumping out of the speakers and a staff member behind the entrance desk checks our neon-pink wristband as we walk in.

‘It’s request hour,’ she says, with far more cheer than I ever had working here. ‘Fill out a form, and you’re pretty much guaranteed to have it played.’

She hands us a blank slip of paper and a pen each.

‘My mind’s gone blank,’ says Joel, turning to look at me.

‘What about a song that reminds you of this place?’ I say, with a shrug. I jot down ‘Mr Brightside’ by the Killers and I go to look at Joel’s sheet, eager to know what song he put down, but he’s already handed it to the cheery woman.

‘What did you pick?’ I ask.

We’re right by a speaker and the music’s loud. Joel shakes his head to indicate that he couldn’t hear. I lean in closer and ask again.