Chapters (93)
- Cover
- About the Author
- Also by Sarah Clarke
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Dedication
- Note to Readers
- Prologue
- December 2021
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- January 2003
- Chapter 6
- December 2021
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- February 2003
- Chapter 9
- December 2021
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- March 2003
- Chapter 13
- December 2021
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- April 2003
- Chapter 18
- December 2021
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- April 2003
- Chapter 23
- December 2021
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- April 2003
- Chapter 27
- December 2021
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- May 2003
- Chapter 35
- December 2021
- Chapter 36
- May 2003
- Chapter 37
- December 2021
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- April 2003
- Chapter 51
- December 2021
- Chapter 52
- June 2003
- Chapter 53
- December 2021
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- January 2022
- Chapter 57
- Epilogue
- A Letter from Sarah Clarke
- Keep Reading …
- Acknowledgements
- Dear Reader …
- About the Publisher
‘I was scared for you,’ Kat explains. ‘Once you’d put that post up on MyNeighbour, risked exposing Beth’s secrets, I thought you could be in danger. I tried to warn you off, told you Beth didn’t like you, so that you’d distance yourself from her. But you didn’t listen. Like Mark didn’t take any notice when I told him to back off either.’
‘This is all fantasy, darling,’ Beth pleads. ‘Don’t listen to her.’
Saskia’s face curls into a grimace, but with pain not confusion this time, the aftereffects of her anaphylaxis. She closes her eyes, takes a few breaths, then steadies herself. ‘If you were watching Beth at Mark’s squat, like you say, why didn’t you stop her attacking him? Even if you’re telling the truth, that’s cruel in itself.’
Kat’s face crumples, an involuntary reaction to Saskia’s stinging words, because of course she’s right. Yes, Kat phoned for the ambulance, but she should have done more than that; she should have stopped Beth before one was needed. But instead, she froze. Petrified. Still cowed by Ellie’s threat after all this time. ‘Eighteen years ago, Beth made me believe I had no voice, no power,’ Kat explains, her voice pleading. ‘She told me that everything I do will always fail. That’s why I took the photos, made the voice recordings; I needed real evidence to back up what I knew before I could contact the police. But she was right; I was failing. When I was too scared to stop her attacking Mark, I realised it had to stop; I needed to be braver. That’s why I came here tonight.’
‘But I still don’t understand,’ Saskia exhales. The colour has drained from her face again, and there’s a film of sweat across her cheeks. ‘What have you known all this time?’
Kat turns towards Beth and sees a growing realisation cross her beautiful face, her fiery eyes turning to ash. Finally she’s worked out who Kat is. ‘I met Beth in a mental health clinic when we were teenagers,’ she says. ‘Although she was called Ellie then. She had anxiety disorder and mysophobia, a fear of germs.’
‘She’s lying, she’s crazy,’ Beth mumbles, scratching her palms.
‘I thought we were friends, until the night Beth admitted to murdering her brother.’
‘What?’ Saskia spits out.
‘He was a heroin addict. But he died of a stroke, an air bubble in the syringe. Everyone thought it was an accident, but when we were in the unit, Beth told me she did it.’
‘No, I would never,’ Beth whispers, too quietly to drown out the sound of her fingernails scratching. ‘It was an accident.’
‘You had a brother?’
‘And then you told me that her parents died in a car accident,’ Kat goes on, her voice starting to break. ‘And I’m scared she caused that too.’