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Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Sarah Clarke
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright
  6. Dedication
  7. Note to Readers
  8. Prologue
  9. December 2021
  10. Chapter 1
  11. Chapter 2
  12. Chapter 3
  13. Chapter 4
  14. Chapter 5
  15. January 2003
  16. Chapter 6
  17. December 2021
  18. Chapter 7
  19. Chapter 8
  20. February 2003
  21. Chapter 9
  22. December 2021
  23. Chapter 10
  24. Chapter 11
  25. Chapter 12
  26. March 2003
  27. Chapter 13
  28. December 2021
  29. Chapter 14
  30. Chapter 15
  31. Chapter 16
  32. Chapter 17
  33. April 2003
  34. Chapter 18
  35. December 2021
  36. Chapter 19
  37. Chapter 20
  38. Chapter 21
  39. Chapter 22
  40. April 2003
  41. Chapter 23
  42. December 2021
  43. Chapter 24
  44. Chapter 25
  45. Chapter 26
  46. April 2003
  47. Chapter 27
  48. December 2021
  49. Chapter 28
  50. Chapter 29
  51. Chapter 30
  52. Chapter 31
  53. Chapter 32
  54. Chapter 33
  55. Chapter 34
  56. May 2003
  57. Chapter 35
  58. December 2021
  59. Chapter 36
  60. May 2003
  61. Chapter 37
  62. December 2021
  63. Chapter 38
  64. Chapter 39
  65. Chapter 40
  66. Chapter 41
  67. Chapter 42
  68. Chapter 43
  69. Chapter 44
  70. Chapter 45
  71. Chapter 46
  72. Chapter 47
  73. Chapter 48
  74. Chapter 49
  75. Chapter 50
  76. April 2003
  77. Chapter 51
  78. December 2021
  79. Chapter 52
  80. June 2003
  81. Chapter 53
  82. December 2021
  83. Chapter 54
  84. Chapter 55
  85. Chapter 56
  86. January 2022
  87. Chapter 57
  88. Epilogue
  89. A Letter from Sarah Clarke
  90. Keep Reading …
  91. Acknowledgements
  92. Dear Reader …
  93. About the Publisher

‘I was scared for you,’ Kat explains. ‘Once you’d put that post up on MyNeighbour, risked exposing Beth’s secrets, I thought you could be in danger. I tried to warn you off, told you Beth didn’t like you, so that you’d distance yourself from her. But you didn’t listen. Like Mark didn’t take any notice when I told him to back off either.’

‘This is all fantasy, darling,’ Beth pleads. ‘Don’t listen to her.’

Saskia’s face curls into a grimace, but with pain not confusion this time, the aftereffects of her anaphylaxis. She closes her eyes, takes a few breaths, then steadies herself. ‘If you were watching Beth at Mark’s squat, like you say, why didn’t you stop her attacking him? Even if you’re telling the truth, that’s cruel in itself.’

Kat’s face crumples, an involuntary reaction to Saskia’s stinging words, because of course she’s right. Yes, Kat phoned for the ambulance, but she should have done more than that; she should have stopped Beth before one was needed. But instead, she froze. Petrified. Still cowed by Ellie’s threat after all this time. ‘Eighteen years ago, Beth made me believe I had no voice, no power,’ Kat explains, her voice pleading. ‘She told me that everything I do will always fail. That’s why I took the photos, made the voice recordings; I needed real evidence to back up what I knew before I could contact the police. But she was right; I was failing. When I was too scared to stop her attacking Mark, I realised it had to stop; I needed to be braver. That’s why I came here tonight.’

‘But I still don’t understand,’ Saskia exhales. The colour has drained from her face again, and there’s a film of sweat across her cheeks. ‘What have you known all this time?’

Kat turns towards Beth and sees a growing realisation cross her beautiful face, her fiery eyes turning to ash. Finally she’s worked out who Kat is. ‘I met Beth in a mental health clinic when we were teenagers,’ she says. ‘Although she was called Ellie then. She had anxiety disorder and mysophobia, a fear of germs.’

‘She’s lying, she’s crazy,’ Beth mumbles, scratching her palms.

‘I thought we were friends, until the night Beth admitted to murdering her brother.’

‘What?’ Saskia spits out.

‘He was a heroin addict. But he died of a stroke, an air bubble in the syringe. Everyone thought it was an accident, but when we were in the unit, Beth told me she did it.’

‘No, I would never,’ Beth whispers, too quietly to drown out the sound of her fingernails scratching. ‘It was an accident.’

‘You had a brother?’

‘And then you told me that her parents died in a car accident,’ Kat goes on, her voice starting to break. ‘And I’m scared she caused that too.’