Chapters (93)
- Cover
- About the Author
- Also by Sarah Clarke
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Dedication
- Note to Readers
- Prologue
- December 2021
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- January 2003
- Chapter 6
- December 2021
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- February 2003
- Chapter 9
- December 2021
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- March 2003
- Chapter 13
- December 2021
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- April 2003
- Chapter 18
- December 2021
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- April 2003
- Chapter 23
- December 2021
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- April 2003
- Chapter 27
- December 2021
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- May 2003
- Chapter 35
- December 2021
- Chapter 36
- May 2003
- Chapter 37
- December 2021
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- April 2003
- Chapter 51
- December 2021
- Chapter 52
- June 2003
- Chapter 53
- December 2021
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- January 2022
- Chapter 57
- Epilogue
- A Letter from Sarah Clarke
- Keep Reading …
- Acknowledgements
- Dear Reader …
- About the Publisher
‘Don’t be stupid,’ Mark scoffs, but Stew’s claim ruffles him. Because he can’t really remember hitting his old work colleague. He remembers Stew stumbling after too many beers, then falling heavily on Mark’s Apple Mac computer, plus the sound of it crashing to the floor. And he remembers a tidal wave of fury raging through him. But the rest is a blur, until the next morning when he woke up on the floor. Surrounded by bloodstains, spilt booze and glass from his smashed screen. ‘My mate died last night,’ he tries. ‘I was arrested and spent the night in a cell. I’ve got nowhere else to go.’ He tries to keep his voice steady, not show how badly Jon’s death has knocked him, but it’s hard.
‘I think you’re confusing me for someone who cares. Listen, we hardly know each other. We worked together for, what, four months? We got pissed together a couple of times on those wanky company bonding nights; I thought you were all right and took pity on you when you had nowhere to stay. But that’s it, and then you fucked it up. Goodbye, Mark.’ Stew unfolds his arms and pushes the front door closed.
Mark stares at the wooden panels. He can’t believe the guy isn’t showing any remorse for smashing up his computer, or taking an ounce of responsibility for his role in their skirmish. It’s like that woman last night. She didn’t give a shit about Jon dying, even though she treated him like vermin when he was alive. Maybe that’s why. Mark wonders how long it took for her to call the ambulance. Whether she hesitated. The man’s a junkie – no wonder he’s out of it. Is he really worth helping?
The anger is still racing through him, but he can’t stare at a grimy front door all day. He eyes the VW Golf parked outside the flat. Dark grey and recently washed. Stew’s car, but easy to imagine her face in its gleaming panels. Mark kicks out with his right foot, connecting with the driver’s door. An alarm bursts into life and he laughs. The wailing suits his mood.
‘Oi!’ Stew’s voice flies out of the front door. ‘Get off my fucking car!’
‘Don’t worry, I’m going,’ Mark says, grinning. It’s the best he’s felt all day.
‘You’re a fucking lunatic.’
Mark ignores the insult and turns right out of Stew’s road. But the satisfaction he got from vexing his ex-housemate quickly evaporates as he realises that he’s still got nowhere to sleep tonight. Stew was his only chance for finding a safe place to bed down, and it took him about three minutes to completely screw that up. What the hell is wrong with him? Why does his stupid temper always get in the way of him making a good decision?