Back My Perfect Friend
Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Sarah Clarke
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright
  6. Dedication
  7. Note to Readers
  8. Prologue
  9. December 2021
  10. Chapter 1
  11. Chapter 2
  12. Chapter 3
  13. Chapter 4
  14. Chapter 5
  15. January 2003
  16. Chapter 6
  17. December 2021
  18. Chapter 7
  19. Chapter 8
  20. February 2003
  21. Chapter 9
  22. December 2021
  23. Chapter 10
  24. Chapter 11
  25. Chapter 12
  26. March 2003
  27. Chapter 13
  28. December 2021
  29. Chapter 14
  30. Chapter 15
  31. Chapter 16
  32. Chapter 17
  33. April 2003
  34. Chapter 18
  35. December 2021
  36. Chapter 19
  37. Chapter 20
  38. Chapter 21
  39. Chapter 22
  40. April 2003
  41. Chapter 23
  42. December 2021
  43. Chapter 24
  44. Chapter 25
  45. Chapter 26
  46. April 2003
  47. Chapter 27
  48. December 2021
  49. Chapter 28
  50. Chapter 29
  51. Chapter 30
  52. Chapter 31
  53. Chapter 32
  54. Chapter 33
  55. Chapter 34
  56. May 2003
  57. Chapter 35
  58. December 2021
  59. Chapter 36
  60. May 2003
  61. Chapter 37
  62. December 2021
  63. Chapter 38
  64. Chapter 39
  65. Chapter 40
  66. Chapter 41
  67. Chapter 42
  68. Chapter 43
  69. Chapter 44
  70. Chapter 45
  71. Chapter 46
  72. Chapter 47
  73. Chapter 48
  74. Chapter 49
  75. Chapter 50
  76. April 2003
  77. Chapter 51
  78. December 2021
  79. Chapter 52
  80. June 2003
  81. Chapter 53
  82. December 2021
  83. Chapter 54
  84. Chapter 55
  85. Chapter 56
  86. January 2022
  87. Chapter 57
  88. Epilogue
  89. A Letter from Sarah Clarke
  90. Keep Reading …
  91. Acknowledgements
  92. Dear Reader …
  93. About the Publisher

While they’re complete opposites in many ways, they both seem to like the familiarity of routine, and Katherine slides onto the hard-backed wooden chair in the corner of Ellie’s room without discussion, and then watches her new friend climb onto her (still crease-free) bed and cross her legs neatly underneath herself. The room is warm, and Katherine can’t help scratching her chin.

‘Does it hurt?’ Ellie asks, staring at the scales of red skin on Katherine’s face, while reaching for a tube of prescription hand cream on her bedside table. Katherine should feel embarrassed by such a direct enquiry, or annoyed, but there’s not much Ellie could say that would offend her.

‘It itches sometimes, but no, it doesn’t hurt. Not physically anyway.’

Ellie nods her understanding. ‘I suppose there were kids at school who made comments. It was the same for me.’

‘You? But you’re beautiful!’ Katherine can’t help spurting out, but the compliment goes either unnoticed or unaccepted.

‘My parents are from Romania. Everyone called me gypsy.’

‘That’s crazy. I bet they were jealous.’

‘Or they called me poverty case, because my clothes were too small for me, or too tatty.’

‘I can’t imagine that; you always look immaculate in here.’

‘You’re very loyal, aren’t you?’

Katherine shrugs. ‘No, I … I just like you, I guess,’ she admits shyly.

‘I like you too,’ Ellie counters. ‘But it’s not just me. You’re loyal to Becca too.’

‘Becca? I did something terrible to her,’ Katherine whispers, the weight of guilt dropping on her chest like a fallen tree trunk.

‘You still talk about her like she’s perfect, even after she turned the letter you wrote her into ammunition.’

Katherine sighs. She doesn’t regret talking to Ellie about Becca – she was kind and compassionate like always – but it does mean that Ellie can spring the subject on her at any time. ‘I owe her,’ she finally whispers. ‘After what I did to her.’

With the confession, the images come – just like they always do. The blood starting as a spot, then spreading. All the noise and chaos. Students staring in horror, a PE teacher trying to help, shoving a bunched-up football shirt against Becca’s head. She never found out how well it worked, because the police turned up before the paramedics moved Mr Cannock out of the way.

‘You were ill,’ Ellie says. ‘Scared and let down. You couldn’t help it.’

‘I remember being so mad with her,’ Katherine whispers. ‘For choosing Clara over me. I thought I was the victim, but I got that wrong.’

‘You were a victim, just of a different crime.’