Chapters (93)
- Cover
- About the Author
- Also by Sarah Clarke
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Dedication
- Note to Readers
- Prologue
- December 2021
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- January 2003
- Chapter 6
- December 2021
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- February 2003
- Chapter 9
- December 2021
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- March 2003
- Chapter 13
- December 2021
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- April 2003
- Chapter 18
- December 2021
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- April 2003
- Chapter 23
- December 2021
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- April 2003
- Chapter 27
- December 2021
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- May 2003
- Chapter 35
- December 2021
- Chapter 36
- May 2003
- Chapter 37
- December 2021
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- April 2003
- Chapter 51
- December 2021
- Chapter 52
- June 2003
- Chapter 53
- December 2021
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- January 2022
- Chapter 57
- Epilogue
- A Letter from Sarah Clarke
- Keep Reading …
- Acknowledgements
- Dear Reader …
- About the Publisher
Saskia walks into her hallway, steps out of her wellies and slides down onto her backside, with her spine pushed up against the radiator. That was a God-awful walk. Not because it was freezing cold, although it was, and that didn’t help, and not even because she had to pick up two separate bags of poo. But because she got the fear. The scratching of panic between her shoulder blades that she was being followed. She reads all the horror stories about London parks after dark, the muggings, the senseless attacks. She reads about the women who have been murdered, often for no other reason than being in a killer’s eyeline when they chose to strike. So she knows the risks. But she has always refused to let them curtail her life, because freedom, equality, are important to her. She believes that she is entitled to walk alone safely after dark, and so she must practise what she preaches.
But tonight she was scared. She couldn’t stop thinking that someone was behind her, that she’s got a stalker of her own.
While she can barely admit it to herself, she wonders if it’s jealousy. When Beth first told her about Mark, Saskia’s first thought hadn’t been for Beth’s safety. It had been much less charitable – well of course you’d be the one with a stalker, like some sort of celebrity, wouldn’t you – and she can’t help wondering if she’s created an imaginary stalker of her own as a way of competing with her supposed friend. But that doesn’t really make sense because she doesn’t have an imagination; she’s not that kind of writer. She might embellish facts slightly to make them more exciting, but her brain isn’t wired to make things up from scratch. Could she have dreamed up the feeling of eyes on the back of her neck? Or the shadow that seemed attached to her by some invisible, ominous leash?
‘Are you comfortable down there?’
Saskia looks up and gives her husband a sardonic smile. ‘Just thawing out.’
Tim nods thoughtfully. ‘Would you move for a glass of wine?’
‘Obviously.’ Saskia shakes the strange thoughts out of her head and holds both hands out for Tim to pull her up.
‘Jesus, your hands are freezing.’
Saskia sighs. ‘It wasn’t my all-time favourite walk. Cold, dark; a bit scary if I’m honest.’
‘Well, at least you’re back in one piece. And you’re always saying that women should be able to walk alone at night without feeling scared.’
Saskia heads down the narrow hallway and into the kitchen. ‘You’re right, I suppose. Maybe Beth having a stalker has put me on edge. Reminded me that, very frustratingly, men’s physical dominance means they’ve always got the upper hand.’
‘I think you’re being a bit dramatic. It’s Clapham Common, not downtown Caracas.’