Back My Perfect Friend
Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Sarah Clarke
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright
  6. Dedication
  7. Note to Readers
  8. Prologue
  9. December 2021
  10. Chapter 1
  11. Chapter 2
  12. Chapter 3
  13. Chapter 4
  14. Chapter 5
  15. January 2003
  16. Chapter 6
  17. December 2021
  18. Chapter 7
  19. Chapter 8
  20. February 2003
  21. Chapter 9
  22. December 2021
  23. Chapter 10
  24. Chapter 11
  25. Chapter 12
  26. March 2003
  27. Chapter 13
  28. December 2021
  29. Chapter 14
  30. Chapter 15
  31. Chapter 16
  32. Chapter 17
  33. April 2003
  34. Chapter 18
  35. December 2021
  36. Chapter 19
  37. Chapter 20
  38. Chapter 21
  39. Chapter 22
  40. April 2003
  41. Chapter 23
  42. December 2021
  43. Chapter 24
  44. Chapter 25
  45. Chapter 26
  46. April 2003
  47. Chapter 27
  48. December 2021
  49. Chapter 28
  50. Chapter 29
  51. Chapter 30
  52. Chapter 31
  53. Chapter 32
  54. Chapter 33
  55. Chapter 34
  56. May 2003
  57. Chapter 35
  58. December 2021
  59. Chapter 36
  60. May 2003
  61. Chapter 37
  62. December 2021
  63. Chapter 38
  64. Chapter 39
  65. Chapter 40
  66. Chapter 41
  67. Chapter 42
  68. Chapter 43
  69. Chapter 44
  70. Chapter 45
  71. Chapter 46
  72. Chapter 47
  73. Chapter 48
  74. Chapter 49
  75. Chapter 50
  76. April 2003
  77. Chapter 51
  78. December 2021
  79. Chapter 52
  80. June 2003
  81. Chapter 53
  82. December 2021
  83. Chapter 54
  84. Chapter 55
  85. Chapter 56
  86. January 2022
  87. Chapter 57
  88. Epilogue
  89. A Letter from Sarah Clarke
  90. Keep Reading …
  91. Acknowledgements
  92. Dear Reader …
  93. About the Publisher

Saskia walks into her hallway, steps out of her wellies and slides down onto her backside, with her spine pushed up against the radiator. That was a God-awful walk. Not because it was freezing cold, although it was, and that didn’t help, and not even because she had to pick up two separate bags of poo. But because she got the fear. The scratching of panic between her shoulder blades that she was being followed. She reads all the horror stories about London parks after dark, the muggings, the senseless attacks. She reads about the women who have been murdered, often for no other reason than being in a killer’s eyeline when they chose to strike. So she knows the risks. But she has always refused to let them curtail her life, because freedom, equality, are important to her. She believes that she is entitled to walk alone safely after dark, and so she must practise what she preaches.

But tonight she was scared. She couldn’t stop thinking that someone was behind her, that she’s got a stalker of her own.

While she can barely admit it to herself, she wonders if it’s jealousy. When Beth first told her about Mark, Saskia’s first thought hadn’t been for Beth’s safety. It had been much less charitable – well of course you’d be the one with a stalker, like some sort of celebrity, wouldn’t you – and she can’t help wondering if she’s created an imaginary stalker of her own as a way of competing with her supposed friend. But that doesn’t really make sense because she doesn’t have an imagination; she’s not that kind of writer. She might embellish facts slightly to make them more exciting, but her brain isn’t wired to make things up from scratch. Could she have dreamed up the feeling of eyes on the back of her neck? Or the shadow that seemed attached to her by some invisible, ominous leash?

‘Are you comfortable down there?’

Saskia looks up and gives her husband a sardonic smile. ‘Just thawing out.’

Tim nods thoughtfully. ‘Would you move for a glass of wine?’

‘Obviously.’ Saskia shakes the strange thoughts out of her head and holds both hands out for Tim to pull her up.

‘Jesus, your hands are freezing.’

Saskia sighs. ‘It wasn’t my all-time favourite walk. Cold, dark; a bit scary if I’m honest.’

‘Well, at least you’re back in one piece. And you’re always saying that women should be able to walk alone at night without feeling scared.’

Saskia heads down the narrow hallway and into the kitchen. ‘You’re right, I suppose. Maybe Beth having a stalker has put me on edge. Reminded me that, very frustratingly, men’s physical dominance means they’ve always got the upper hand.’

‘I think you’re being a bit dramatic. It’s Clapham Common, not downtown Caracas.’