Chapters (55)
- Cover
- Title Page
- Dedication
- CHAPTER 1 Mattie
- CHAPTER 2 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 3 Mattie
- CHAPTER 4 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 5 Mattie
- CHAPTER 6 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 7 Mattie
- CHAPTER 8 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 9 Mattie
- CHAPTER 10 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 11 Mattie
- CHAPTER 12 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 13 Mattie
- CHAPTER 14 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 15 Mattie
- CHAPTER 16 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 17 Mattie
- CHAPTER 18 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 19 Mattie
- CHAPTER 20 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 21 Mattie
- CHAPTER 22 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 23 Mattie
- CHAPTER 24 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 25 Mattie
- CHAPTER 26 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 27 Mattie
- CHAPTER 28 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 29 Mattie
- CHAPTER 30 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 31 Mattie
- CHAPTER 32 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 33 Mattie
- CHAPTER 34 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 35 Mattie
- CHAPTER 36 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 37 Mattie
- CHAPTER 38 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 39 Mattie
- CHAPTER 40 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 41 Mattie
- CHAPTER 42 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 43 Mattie
- CHAPTER 44 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 45 Mattie
- CHAPTER 46 Mercedes
- CHAPTER 47 Mattie
- CHAPTER 48 Mercedes
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- More from the Author
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
- ALSO BY ANIKA FAJARDO
I can’t help rolling my eyes. I do not care about some poem. But I perch on the edge of the chair next to her. I add foot tapping to my finger drumming.
“It’s at the end, after the last chapter.” She flips the book closed and then open. “It’s written by him.”
“The Sky Has Many Secrets,” she reads aloud.
I remember the one star winking at me. My foot stops tapping.
Mattie reads silently. Her eyes move back and forth across the page, a wrinkle forming above her nose. I know I get the same wrinkle because Tristan always tickles it when I’m reading aloud to him. A chill runs up my spine. She stops reading. She’s like stone, like granite. She doesn’t say anything but then pushes the book toward me. I don’t want to touch it. I don’t want to be frozen like Mattie. I want to keep tapping my foot and being annoyed. But I read.
The Sky Has Many Secrets
by Francisco Gómez Flores
I’ve seen the stars wandering
Across an Amazonian sky
Above the red flames of cooking fire
Over a dusty Andean trail
Beneath the yellow glow of the moon
Goddess
Some nights, the stars
Tell stories of loss
They are the tears of children
Sisters
Daughters of mine
If I could reach across the sky
Would they meet me halfway?
After I read the poem, I read it again. Mattie reads it again, too. Both of us are mouthing the words under our breath. Amazonian. Moon. Children. Sisters. Daughters. I don’t look at Mattie, but I can feel her next to me, our bodies that look so much alike taking up the same space in this college library. It’s weird, but I swear I can feel something—like a thread—connecting us. For a moment, neither of us move. Around us, students are beginning to pack up their books and laptops. They have a Friday kind of energy.
“It’s about us,” Mattie whispers.
Great, I’m frozen, too. I swallow the annoying lump in my throat. “Maybe, maybe not.” I try to sound as breezy as possible, but the lump makes my voice crack. “I mean, poems are weird like that.”
But I know that poems tell the stories they’re meant to tell. My English teacher last year told me that I had a gift. She loved my poems. It’s easy to write a poem. You just put words on the page, words that pop into your brain, words that rearrange themselves in the air before you write them down and somehow, they mean something—maybe something you meant to say and maybe something completely different—to the person reading them. Like your teacher.
Or your daughters.
“What…,” Mattie begins. “I mean, why…” She turns to me as if I have the answers, but all I have is questions.