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Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

From the farmhouse the sound of barking. She glanced toward the house.

“Please,” I said.

She studied my face for a moment. She reached out, put a hand on my elbow. “Are you the father of Alicia Curtis?”

“You know who she is?”

“Bror would not forgive me if I sent you away. Come.”

“And the dogs?”

She smiled. “No one is bringing the dogs.”

The kindness in her smile almost broke me.

I slid Franklin’s car seat out of its mount, slammed the car door shut. The sound cut harsh and sharp across the drowsy heat of the day. In the hedgerow the crickets fell silent, though Franklin did not wake.

“This way,” she said.

By the house was a large meadow. Above the meadow a sparrow hawk hung noiselessly, watching for the rustle of mice in the long grass below. I heard a cuckoo and, farther off, crows. We came to an iron gate. It slid open on silent hinges. The hawk hung in the air, wingtips shimmering. As we passed, it tilted and slid toward the far edge of the meadow, hung there watching silently down.

Our footsteps echoed off the white stone building ahead. In an upstairs window I caught movement. I looked up to see another female figure, also in gray. There, then gone. Like breath.

Above the open door hung another carved wooden sign:

You are entering a place of contemplation

“After you,” said the woman.

The air in the hallway was cool. I called out, “Hello?”

The timbers of the house flexed and creaked. I heard a large dog barking close by, then another. When I turned to look behind me the woman had disappeared.

“Hello?” I called out, louder this time.

“Ah.”

Bror stepped into view from a doorway halfway down. He pulled the door to, then turned, stood there in his gray vestment, arms open in welcome.

“Cal Curtis,” he said, as if I were his long-lost friend.

“Yes.” How did he know?

“And what a luminously beautiful child.”

“His name is Franklin.”

“You are welcome. Franklin is welcome. Perhaps your son would like to continue his nap on some lovely soft cushions?”

“He’ll be okay in his car seat. Thank you.” I set the seat on the flagstones.

“Handsome little fellow,” said Bror. “He will be fine there by the door. Now, we’re just finishing off . . .” With that same open-armed gesture, he turned away from me and into the room behind him.

I heard voices. A woman appeared. Heels and a pressed linen suit. She saw me and hesitated, a look of surprise on her face.

I stepped forward. “I’m Cal.”

Arno’s mother narrowed her eyes.

I said, “I’m Licia Curtis’s father.”

“I know who you are. I just . . .” She smiled, took my left hand. “Anyway, hello again. I’m Mari.”

“Hello, Mari. I didn’t expect to see you here either.”