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Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

The handgrip was textured, the trigger guard square. I leaned in. Engraved into the gunmetal were the words Glock 17 Gen4 AUSTRIA.

Vee’s face was flushed, her eyes electric with excitement. “Aren’t you even going to pick it up?”

I shook my head. “Vee, I’m sorry.”

I could feel her disappointment. This was not the response she wanted.

“Why?”

“We are not providing the stability you need.”

“Did you know she had this, though?”

“It’s not a complete surprise.”

I began to fold the corners of the cloth back over the body of the pistol.

“Dad, is Mum having some kind of breakdown?”

I laughed. “Your mother is the sanest person I know.”

She looked at me, unconvinced. She made to say something. She stopped.

“What is it, Vee?”

“There’s another thing. Only now I don’t know if you’ll be interested.”

“Is this other thing also about Mum?” I said.

“No.”

“All right, then. What sort of a thing is it?”

“A story. One nobody else has.”

She left the room and returned with an iPad.

“Vee,” I said, “where is this from?”

“I promised not to say.”

“Vee—”

“You can take it to the police if you like, Dad. But please watch what’s on it first.”

Twenty-Nine

It began like a feature film, though there was no sound. The camera skimmed the glassy fjord, raised up as it came to the island, followed the path from the boat dock up to the clearing. It hung suspended, looking down at the main house, at the bodies that lay strewn on the sun-scorched grass beyond.

Children. Other people’s children. You could almost imagine they were sleeping.

I reached across, pressed pause, turned the iPad on its front.

“Okay,” I said. “Vee, I want you to go to bed.”

Vee met my eye. “I already watched it, Dad. Twice. It’s not like I’m going to sleep better if I go to bed now. But if that’s what you want . . .”

I pushed the tips of my fingers together, tapped both index fingers against the tip of my nose, breathed out heavily. I turned the iPad over. Vee pressed play.

Even in close-up, the camera held steady. Now it followed a dark-haired boy as he ran along a path, panning and tilting with him. So close. You could see his eyes, read the fear in them, see patches of sweat around the collar of his T-shirt. The camera watched as he left the path, made his way into a wooden cabin.

The cabin was one of many. The helicopter stayed in position for what must have been about a minute. The shot held wide, staring down. In that time you saw another boy, then two girls, each running to a different cabin. The camera tilted up, zoomed in to a path, found a man in police uniform.

The tall brother. John Andersen. Carrying a pistol. The merest hint of a smile.