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Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

Then there it was; her smile returned. She ran her hand down my thigh. “Also,” she said, “how can you possibly be so hard?” And when we kissed it felt as if she meant it, for the first time in months. She held me close, pushed her tongue deep into my mouth. I ran my hand down her back, let it rest, flat, at the base of her spine. She bit my lip and I pushed her forward and onto me.

The doorbell. A two-tone chime.

I pulled away. “Fuck,” I said.

“Fuck,” said Elsa.

The doorbell rang a second time.

Two

“You’re going to have to answer,” I said. “I am going to have to shower.”

“Okay,” she said, getting up. She turned. “Although, actually, why?”

I got off the bed, threw on my dressing gown, began to walk toward the bathroom. “Because I am not answering the door to your father in this state.”

“Okay, that is not an image that I want in my mind.”

“Or your father’s.”

“You made your point.” She bent down, picked up her dress, pulled it easily over her head and down, smoothed it around her thighs. “Go take your shower, Cal.”

I showered my erection away, braced, swearing as icy needles of water bombarded my shoulders, cascaded down my chest, and on to my groin. I took shampoo from the bottle, lathered it into my hair, then stepped forward so that my head was fully under. I counted to thirty through gritted teeth, then reached out and turned off the tap.

In the bedroom I pulled on a T-shirt and a pair of shorts. Elsa and her father were next door in the living room, their voices hushed. Odd. You could barely hear them, but it was enough to put me on edge. Elsa’s pitch was wrong, as if her voice had slipped out of tune.

My phone chimed. A text message on the lock screen, from a number unknown.

CELEBRATE

Cheers, I thought. Whoever you are. There was an attachment. A video. I turned the phone on the side so it filled the screen, pressed play. A screenful of black.

I deleted it.

I found a pair of black trousers in the drawer of the wardrobe and pulled them on, then went to join my wife in the living room.

“Hey, Cal,” said Henrik.

“Henrik, hey.”

The television was on, though neither of them was looking at it. On the screen a building, indistinct in the smoke.

Henrik watched me as I crossed the floor to greet him. A strong jaw; his daughter’s eyes, like a waiting animal, patient and appraising, all senses firing. He drew me toward him, hugged me solemnly, then looked questioningly at Elsa.

“What is it?” I said.

“There’s been an explosion in town,” said Elsa.

“A big one,” said Henrik.

I looked at Elsa. Elsa nodded.