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Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

The gravel was loud beneath my shoes. Crickets jumped before me as I walked the path toward the farmhouse. It was windless here, the sun beating down, though on the cornfields you could see the shadows of clouds rolling in from the fjord.

How perfectly Scandinavian it all looked. The split beechwood, stacked neatly in rows; the wild strawberry plants in the meadow, studded with tiny red fruits; the dizzy drone of insects on the wing. Swallows dipped and dived through the orchards. Past the house, near the horizon, a single fighter jet, then another, skirting the shoreline far beyond. A phalanx of white doves took flight, circled the yard, began to settle again in the pear trees.

The front door stood open. If there was anyone in the house, they could hear me. But all was still. No faces in the upstairs window.

I stopped five meters from the house. “Bror,” I said, and again, louder, “Bror!”

Nothing. I approached. That sign:

You are entering a place of contemplation

No, I thought. Whatever this place was, it was not that.

My footsteps echoed off the polished stone floors. Every door was open. Here, just beyond the staircase, was a living room, decked out as a classroom. The paneled walls were painted white. Four benches, placed in a row, and a lectern at the front. Above the lectern an image: an eagle carrying off a lamb. No desks on which to write, and in the bookcases no books. No evidence of what anyone here believed. Not a place of learning. A place of indoctrination.

The kitchen had been emptied. The refrigerator stood open, light off. Above the sink a tap dripped. I crossed the floor, turned off the tap.

I made my way toward the staircase.

“Hello?”

The house breathed. Wood shifted against wood, beam against beam.

I began to climb the stairs, quietly, aware of my own breath. Six steps, then a landing, then seven steps up to the next floor. Hung by the landing window was a needlepoint square. A nun dressed all in white holding a small tapestry on which were the words:

Be simple

Be pure

Be true to the faith

Be mindful

Be kind

Be true to the race

A child’s rhyme, designed to bypass rational thought. Licia had cut the last three words from the print on her wall, hiding from us their murderous intent.

On the floor above were three bedrooms of roughly equal size, and a large windowless bathroom. There were toothpaste spatters by the sink and on the gray-painted floor, but the room was clean and free of dust.