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Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

A tinny chiming sound. She reached into the cloth bag that hung from her belt, produced her gray plastic phone. She looked at the screen. She frowned, typed a short reply, returned the phone to the bag.

“Does Bror know you’re here?” I said as gently as I could.

Her eyes flicked away. “Bror’s really just a name for something bigger.”

“Bigger?”

“It’s a network of helpers. Other people aren’t good at implementation because they think too much and believe too much. Bror is about the praxis.”

“So people come to him . . .”

“. . . to Bror . . .”

“. . . and Bror helps them plan . . .”

She exhaled heavily, gave a slight shake of the head. “They told me you learned nothing from the action.”

“The action?” I felt the blood pulsing cold in my hands, felt my chest tighten.

She took a deep breath. “I didn’t believe them.”

“By action, you mean the murders?”

Her phone chimed again. She ignored it.

“How can you not see the message, Dad?”

In her eyes burned a dangerous fire. I took her hand, chose my words with care.

“But Licia, love, the message of the ‘action’ is murder. You can’t separate it from what those men did.”

Her expression softened. She gave a sad little smile. “Why are you criticizing something you can’t understand?”

“Make this right,” I said. “Tell the police what you just told me.”

The phone chimed. Licia took it out, read something from the screen. She looked at me.

I seized the phone from her hand.

Time you accepted your parents’ limitations.

“Licia,” I said. “We have to tell the police.”

“Why are you trying to hurt us?”

“To hurt you?” For a moment I thought I’d misheard. Then I understood.

“You don’t regret any of it,” I said. “Do you?”

Licia laughed. She actually laughed.

“I used to think of all the lives you saved, Licia. All based on a footprint that you left on that fake police boat. We thought it had to be you who took the ammunition case. We thought you shortened the massacre. ‘Our Licia,’ we would say, ‘hero of Garden Island.’ Without that thought I think we would have gone under. Except that the Hero of Garden Island was a girl called Maria. You were never on the island.”

She looked at me, and I saw that it was true.

I tried to marshal my anger, spoke as quietly as I could. “Those men in court aren’t smart enough to execute a plan of this complexity. Not without help. But Bror’s smart. And Milla’s smart.”

She took a breath. Held it. Released it. Took another breath.

“Is that a breathing technique?” I said as gently as I could.

She nodded.

“Did he teach you that?”

She exhaled, nodded again.

Bror, with his breathing and his meditation and his warm reassuring manner. How easily he would have bypassed Licia’s defenses.