Back Love and Other Lies
Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

“I used to read stories about men walking into kindergartens with automatic weapons, and I would think, that’s America, or that’s Chechnya: that will never happen here. And now I fear that our safe little world is changing, and such a thing can and will happen here, and I shall be forced to put armed guards at the gate of Josi’s kindergarten.” He turned to me. “I can only imagine what it’s like to have a child not come home. We failed you on that day. We are doing what we can to put that right.”

His smile—the sadness in it—looked absolutely sincere. And yet . . .

“Can I ask you a question, Ephraim?”

Tvist looked about him. “We are in an informal situation, no?” He waved his hand demonstratively. “Ask away.”

I said, “What if you had information that could have prevented a massacre?”

“Then I would act on that information and prevent the massacre.” Another sincere smile. “What kind of information?”

A Post-it note with a car registration on it, I thought. But this was not the place to show my hand.

When I got home Vee was playing Battle Royale. Her avatar was watching from a high tower, scanning the horizon through the sights of a rifle. Far below, another avatar was jumping. Vee sighted up and pulled the trigger. The avatar below her disappeared mid-jump.

“And . . . head shot,” she said, under her breath.

“Vee, where’s Mum?”

She laughed. “Who ever knows the true answer to that question?”

“So, not home yet?”

She shook her head. “But guess who I found today?”

“Who did you find?”

She put her headset onto her desk, became very serious. “Arno.”

“You . . . what do you mean, you found him?”

She smiled. Her excitement was electric. No sense that she had overstepped a boundary.

“Vee,” I said, “you do know you mustn’t speak to that boy, don’t you?”

“Dad, he knows something, I swear.”

She had gone to Arno’s school; she had followed him home; she had asked him about Licia. Arno had run away. She had followed him for miles.

“Vee,” I said, “I need you to understand that you’re dealing with someone in a fragile emotional state. I had no idea he was even back at school.”

“He was.”

“You cannot approach him. Do you understand me?”

“Sure. But I didn’t.”

“You just told me you did.”

“Fine. I won’t do it again. Sorry I spoke . . .” She looked toward the hall. “There’s the answer to your other question.”

I looked at her. What did she mean?

She said, “You didn’t hear her?”

I listened. I heard Elsa’s shoes drop. I heard her pad toward the kitchen. I found her by the cooker, reading from her phone screen.

“Hey,” I said.

“Hey.”

She looked up, turned her phone over, placed it on the worktop, smiled.