8:31pm: approaching deli with credit card. Four people are standing with two dogs, giving the dogs attention. A man said ‘twenny-five dogs! That was my mission for my birthday: to pet twenny-five dogs. And I did it! That’s what I did for my birthday.’ bought the things I had selected. The deli looked empty. The man was talking in another language to someone I couldn’t see. When I left he said ‘you come back soon, right?’ I smiled and said ‘okay I will.’

8:38pm: bus approached. People disembarked. Walked onto bus and the driver said ‘nine o’clock. That’s the next bus.’ a short older man made eye contact with me and said ‘that’s late!’ I made ‘commiserating face.’ the bus driver walked out and said ‘hi’ to a man standing next to me, also leaning against a wall. The man said ‘what’s up man.’

8:45pm: waiting for the bus. The leaning man is singing. Seems like sleepy’s will be closed. It’s starting to rain.

8:48pm: they close at 9pm. Walking to waldbaum’s to get green smoothie things. Deleted ‘debating going to Manhattan to buy drugs,’ jesus the second I typed that I got a text from drug dealer I’d buy from. 10% off. Shit. Going to buy wine from liquor store to use for something for dinner. Don’t want to spend more money on drugs for now. Feel like I can do it. The only thing I need to do is to not buy drugs. Then I won’t have them.

9:00pm: I want to make a nice ass dinner. Get a recipe from mom. The man in the liquor store asked to see my ID and I said ‘that’s kind of you.’ he was acting suspicious of me the whole time. A man came in and asked for captain Morgan. They were playing ‘dirty deeds done dirt cheap.’ Zachary and I used to sing that in funny voices.

9:06pm: Walked to the opthomologist’s office and torn-down papa John’s to take a picture of the Manhattan skyline. Pretty. I don’t think you can see the skyline in the picture. Feel really good.