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Contents ( 123)
  1. Praise for The Cancer Ladies’ Running Club
  2. Also By Josie Lloyd
  3. Copyright
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Contents
  6. 1
  7. Bah Humbug
  8. 2
  9. The Gravy Arc
  10. 3
  11. Everybody’s Having Fun
  12. 4
  13. New Friendship Turf
  14. 5
  15. Pilcharding
  16. 6
  17. Resolutions
  18. 7
  19. Scatter Cushions
  20. 8
  21. The Family Zoom
  22. 9
  23. The Extension
  24. 10
  25. Luna
  26. 11
  27. Washing Away the Bad Juju
  28. 12
  29. Dog Ambush
  30. 13
  31. The Promise of Fireworks
  32. 14
  33. Inner Superhero
  34. 15
  35. Tent Call
  36. 16
  37. Oystercatchers
  38. 17
  39. Rob’s Declaration
  40. 18
  41. Hard to Forgive
  42. 19
  43. A Sliver of Hope
  44. 20
  45. Snow Swim
  46. 21
  47. A Glimpse into Next Door
  48. 22
  49. Date Night
  50. 23
  51. Quad Bike
  52. 24
  53. Back to the Office
  54. 25
  55. The Jab
  56. 26
  57. Dawn Call
  58. 27
  59. Life Drawing
  60. 28
  61. Equinox
  62. 29
  63. Home Hairdresser
  64. 30
  65. Beach Clean
  66. 31
  67. Bunny Ears
  68. 32
  69. Bombshell
  70. 33
  71. The Nightingale
  72. 34
  73. Destruction
  74. 35
  75. Home in a Box
  76. 36
  77. Back on Call
  78. 37
  79. Upfront and Honest
  80. 38
  81. A Trip to Hampstead Pond
  82. 39
  83. That Unmistakeable Profile
  84. 40
  85. Full Moon Swim
  86. 41
  87. The Unexpected Cwych
  88. 42
  89. Caught Out
  90. 43
  91. Shallow Water
  92. 44
  93. From The Pier
  94. 45
  95. Taking Flight
  96. 46
  97. Eels
  98. 47
  99. Facing Facts
  100. 48
  101. Breakfast of Champions
  102. 49
  103. The Betting Shop
  104. 50
  105. A Promise Kept
  106. 51
  107. A New Companion
  108. 52
  109. Adios
  110. 53
  111. A Family Celebration
  112. 54
  113. Towards the Horizon
  114. 55
  115. The Windfarm
  116. 56
  117. Round the Pier
  118. Acknowledgements
  119. Reading Group Questions
  120. Extract
  121. New Year’s Eve
  122. 1
  123. About the Publisher

Matteo looks inside the pot as if this is a surprise. ‘It does?’

‘Yes,’ Maddy says, taking a picture, then quickly adjusting it and holding it up. She’s been posting random things on her feed, constantly trying to make connections between her daily life and the aspirational lifestyle she’s been promoting, but it’s becoming rather desperate. Trying to be profound about ‘stuff’ whilst making out that she’s living an aesthetically pleasing life is a strain to say the least.

She turns around her phone.

‘See? It looks good enough to eat,’ she says. ‘Shall I tag you in?’

‘Oh, no,’ he says, shaking his head. ‘I don’t do all that social media stuff.’

‘You don’t … you mean, you don’t have any accounts?’

‘I did, but I deleted them all. I can’t really see the point. I’m shy and it just made me stressed. And I had friends who fell out on Twitter. I think it’s killing language – everything reduced to soundbites. There’s no room for humour, or tone, or … what’s the word … no … new?’ He screws up his face trying to remember.

‘Nuance?’

‘Nuance. That’s it. And also, I think my girlfriend’s – ex’s’ – he corrects himself – ‘problems were to do with being online too much. She had eating disorders and …’ He sighs and shrugs. ‘I personally believe her obsession with Instagram made it so, so much worse. It killed her self-esteem constantly comparing herself to other people. I really don’t understand what’s so good about it.’

Maddy feels chastened by this honest appraisal. She knows her own self-esteem is damaged by the constant comparison too, but hearing this reminder from Matteo about the real dangers of social media is sobering. Because she’s guilty of being an addict too, isn’t she? The thought that he might think less of her because of it is enough to make her put away her phone and resolve not to get it out again in his company.

They chat easily and soon they’re on to the subject of her hunt for Jamie and Matteo seems genuinely sorry that she hasn’t been able to find him yet. She finds herself telling him about seeing his friends online and how much it hurts that they’ve all moved on.

She tells him the details about Jamie’s trip to Thailand and what terrible shape he’d been in afterwards. She describes the tense atmosphere at home and how it had come to a head last January. She shudders when she remembers the row and how Jamie had snapped one evening after dinner, when he’d taken Trent’s pleas to change his lifestyle so personally. He’d lashed out at them both, telling them they were useless parents.

Trent was furious, but she was more hurt. She remembers crying and telling Jamie over and over that he didn’t mean it, but he kept on, his words increasingly vicious, as he screamed in her face that he hated everything she stood for. Trent tried to make him apologise, of course, but Jamie turned his fury on Trent and it got physical very quickly. She remembers how she tried to break it up. When Trent punched Jamie, his black eye had appeared almost instantly.