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Contents ( 123)
  1. Praise for The Cancer Ladies’ Running Club
  2. Also By Josie Lloyd
  3. Copyright
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Contents
  6. 1
  7. Bah Humbug
  8. 2
  9. The Gravy Arc
  10. 3
  11. Everybody’s Having Fun
  12. 4
  13. New Friendship Turf
  14. 5
  15. Pilcharding
  16. 6
  17. Resolutions
  18. 7
  19. Scatter Cushions
  20. 8
  21. The Family Zoom
  22. 9
  23. The Extension
  24. 10
  25. Luna
  26. 11
  27. Washing Away the Bad Juju
  28. 12
  29. Dog Ambush
  30. 13
  31. The Promise of Fireworks
  32. 14
  33. Inner Superhero
  34. 15
  35. Tent Call
  36. 16
  37. Oystercatchers
  38. 17
  39. Rob’s Declaration
  40. 18
  41. Hard to Forgive
  42. 19
  43. A Sliver of Hope
  44. 20
  45. Snow Swim
  46. 21
  47. A Glimpse into Next Door
  48. 22
  49. Date Night
  50. 23
  51. Quad Bike
  52. 24
  53. Back to the Office
  54. 25
  55. The Jab
  56. 26
  57. Dawn Call
  58. 27
  59. Life Drawing
  60. 28
  61. Equinox
  62. 29
  63. Home Hairdresser
  64. 30
  65. Beach Clean
  66. 31
  67. Bunny Ears
  68. 32
  69. Bombshell
  70. 33
  71. The Nightingale
  72. 34
  73. Destruction
  74. 35
  75. Home in a Box
  76. 36
  77. Back on Call
  78. 37
  79. Upfront and Honest
  80. 38
  81. A Trip to Hampstead Pond
  82. 39
  83. That Unmistakeable Profile
  84. 40
  85. Full Moon Swim
  86. 41
  87. The Unexpected Cwych
  88. 42
  89. Caught Out
  90. 43
  91. Shallow Water
  92. 44
  93. From The Pier
  94. 45
  95. Taking Flight
  96. 46
  97. Eels
  98. 47
  99. Facing Facts
  100. 48
  101. Breakfast of Champions
  102. 49
  103. The Betting Shop
  104. 50
  105. A Promise Kept
  106. 51
  107. A New Companion
  108. 52
  109. Adios
  110. 53
  111. A Family Celebration
  112. 54
  113. Towards the Horizon
  114. 55
  115. The Windfarm
  116. 56
  117. Round the Pier
  118. Acknowledgements
  119. Reading Group Questions
  120. Extract
  121. New Year’s Eve
  122. 1
  123. About the Publisher

The next days are a blur, as Maddy starts to pack up the house. She makes a point of spending as little time as possible with Trent, communicating with him in terse texts about the arrangements necessary for the move. He’s cross with her that she’s not more delighted he’s managed a quick sale, but when the first of the boxes leave in the van for the expensive storage unit, his precious golf clubs rattling in the back among them, reality seems to dawn. They’re actually leaving.

‘Can’t we talk?’ he asks, coming into their bedroom where she’s putting everything in her bedside drawer in a box. It’s stuff she hasn’t thought about for a while. Her grandmother’s dainty nineteen thirties watch, a folded piece of Filofax paper with a note from Jamie telling her that he loves her, her first Glastonbury wristband. She used to find it comforting having these keepsakes near to her as she slept, but she can’t connect to the person to whom they mattered so much. She can’t imagine that they’ll mean the same thing, or ever be in a space again in the same way. She’s written so much about the energy of spaces, about the synergy of objects and emotion, but now she sees that she was grasping at straws. Trying to find meaning where there wasn’t one. They are just things now that this is no longer a home.

‘What’s there to talk about?’ she asks, and he sighs and gives her his give-me-a-break look. Since she’s been home, she’s slept in Jamie’s room and Trent has been on the sofa in his office. But the sofa has gone and, in the bedroom, only their marital bed remains. The new buyers have bought it and she hopes it doesn’t bring them bad luck. Its presence and what it represents feels radioactive as they stand with it in between them.

‘I know there have been some things that have been said, but …’ he pauses. ‘But the thing is, I think we should start again.’

Maddy can hardly believe what she’s hearing. ‘Start again?’

‘Couldn’t we be how we used to be?’

She almost reacts with sarcasm, because that’s never going to be possible after what he’s done.

‘You can’t go backwards,’ Maddy says, shaking her head, remembering Helga on the beach.

‘Don’t you love me any more? Even a little bit? Because I still love you. I want to make things work.’

She stares at him, seeing the flirty look on his face. In a moment, he might suggest that they give the bed a go for old time’s sake. Where has this curveball suddenly come from? And why now? When they’ve almost moved out?

‘What about Helen? And you? You’re together with her. You chose her.’

‘She’s not important.’

Maddy can’t believe what she’s hearing. ‘And she knows that, does she? You’ve told her?’

Because he’ll be hedging his bets, Maddy thinks. As much as she hates Helen, this from Trent, at this late hour, is such a betrayal. Of them both.