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  1. Contents
  2. One
  3. Something softens me
  4. And a withering pear I can’t eat.
  5. Considering
  6. I have to live. There’s stuff inside of things.
  7. What is bread?
  8. In the dream
  9. I sleep in a room.
  10. In my nipple is an eye.
  11. I am in love.
  12. Dec 31, 2014
  13. Aquamarine and topaz
  14. Everywhere there are men, there are men
  15. When I leave here I don’t know where I am.
  16. Two
  17. I like it when we give the world to itself
  18. I can’t believe I agreed to go to work today.
  19. I fold in half
  20. One headline said 5 minutes early is on time;
  21. I am an angel but I respire.
  22. “The Bay Area”
  23. Advanced Adulthood
  24. What’s the big fucking deal about
  25. Today I could aspire but I want to nap
  26. Your yes, yes.
  27. Adornment is exaltation enacted.
  28. It’s Saturday. I meet you, get soft.
  29. I spread butter on the darkest rye
  30. My duty is to tend
  31. He thinks I should be glad because they
  32. His thumbs were
  33. Because I was being flown to Kelowna for a reading and he lives in Nelson
  34. Regardless
  35. Three
  36. In August I visited my Gran.
  37. Strong basic love
  38. Happy Cup
  39. I defer to you.
  40. Blood
  41. Rat vs. Lamb
  42. A beach.
  43. I was born and I lived
  44. I wore a mint-green Donna Karan suit in the Lincoln LS commercial.
  45. The landlord said he lost his phone.
  46. I want to walk the park with you
  47. Hi.
  48. I take a medicine.
  49. I decided that I was a planet and I was a planet.
  50. The crease
  51. I said no
  52. So I have a brand new set of markers
  53. Five
  54. I was a born a baby.
  55. Eighteen degrees Celsius Zagora No events Mostly cloudy
  56. The goat
  57. I cut my horns
  58. My anger is hope for my own righteousness.
  59. The coo of the common emerald dove is the sound of Venus.
  60. I have to live lest I die-live.
  61. It’s why I was born.
  62. Six
  63. I told you.
  64. How much of your body is your head.
  65. The trick to being funny by Aisha Sasha John.
  66. I couldn’t win with my brother because I was born.
  67. Thanks.
  68. I’ve seen stuff always.
  69. For you and all your siblings and friends and husbands or boyfriends.
  70. Seven
  71. I removed the snake ring.
  72. Pussy pain.
  73. The reassuring thing about life
  74. Psychic = Self-believer
  75. The year of being selfish. The year of being relaxed.
  76. I find the book.
  77. I get my power from pleasure. And I get my pleasure from pleasure, too.
  78. I’m on the back of something.
  79. I’m not dead.
  80. I’m not gonna die of love.
  81. I have to live. I’m married to love.
  82. Acknowledgements

You have to worship the fact of life and not its

Corny by-products.

Art is for romantics.

Art is for stupid people.

It’s believable.

When you sin it is believable.

You have the evil fingers.

You have creation light, too.

You’ve been so sorry.

Why have you been sorry?

Think about what life has done to you.

When you think the good are to be rewarded

You reveal your essential stupidity.

I am asking you to take that cover

Down.

I hate a white sky, bare trees, Ontario-ness, winter.

I keep saying I submit and do not.

I have to attend to my pussy.

I have to attend to my heart.

It’s true I hardly know what’s going on

And can’t let that full fact go.

I’ve let my thoughts virgo as

Detective work

Though I have to have problems I suppose

To tenderize

My sweetness.

Or else I would have a

Very, very hard sweetness.

Considering

As a way of being.

I have done that.

A decided

Closeness

With the

Materials

Of a circumstance.

I like have been close to

What’s arrived and

Arriving: I saw

Everything.

And I listened to

Some, many.

I listened to a great deal

And with a placid intelligence

Supported

The odours entering me.

I smelled; thus

I knew.

I could smell

In this Friday blue hour –

An approach to

Night as it

Isn’t night:

I can’t see the sky

From where I’m sitting

But I see

The colour of the air

Around the cactus

And the colour of the air

Around the

Red soil

And I know what the sky is thinking:

I see it turn itself

To closing, so I –

Good night –

Can leave this room

Where the vibration of a resting cellphone

Is a fart

In the, now,

Night –

I have to live. There’s stuff inside of things.

There’s a fridge in the staff kitchen.

And there’s stuff inside that fridge

That isn’t for me to eat but I want

To eat it.

A sound.

Is there

Someone behind me?

No ok I want to eat what I left at home then.

I am glad that I left it

So that

I can eat it –

The centre of a blackberry

It’s like eating butterfly body, basically.

What is bread?

Is bread women?

Is bread youth?

Is bread sorrow?

Is bread

A marshmallow?

What is bread?

In the dream

I didn’t want to give him the $20 on my dresser.

Days before there weren’t

And then were snakes

Of blue, red, and lemon

Ejecting from a hedge

Maze, a garden.

I want on a walk.

I want

Every morning

The damp, loose soft

Of the sky.

I sleep in a room.

I store clothing there.

Outside my room is a hallway

That leads to a door

Beyond which

Is a street

In a city

In a world

In which I live too.

I live in this world.

I live

Today.

I’m of a time.

It will know its name when