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  1. Contents
  2. One
  3. Something softens me
  4. And a withering pear I can’t eat.
  5. Considering
  6. I have to live. There’s stuff inside of things.
  7. What is bread?
  8. In the dream
  9. I sleep in a room.
  10. In my nipple is an eye.
  11. I am in love.
  12. Dec 31, 2014
  13. Aquamarine and topaz
  14. Everywhere there are men, there are men
  15. When I leave here I don’t know where I am.
  16. Two
  17. I like it when we give the world to itself
  18. I can’t believe I agreed to go to work today.
  19. I fold in half
  20. One headline said 5 minutes early is on time;
  21. I am an angel but I respire.
  22. “The Bay Area”
  23. Advanced Adulthood
  24. What’s the big fucking deal about
  25. Today I could aspire but I want to nap
  26. Your yes, yes.
  27. Adornment is exaltation enacted.
  28. It’s Saturday. I meet you, get soft.
  29. I spread butter on the darkest rye
  30. My duty is to tend
  31. He thinks I should be glad because they
  32. His thumbs were
  33. Because I was being flown to Kelowna for a reading and he lives in Nelson
  34. Regardless
  35. Three
  36. In August I visited my Gran.
  37. Strong basic love
  38. Happy Cup
  39. I defer to you.
  40. Blood
  41. Rat vs. Lamb
  42. A beach.
  43. I was born and I lived
  44. I wore a mint-green Donna Karan suit in the Lincoln LS commercial.
  45. The landlord said he lost his phone.
  46. I want to walk the park with you
  47. Hi.
  48. I take a medicine.
  49. I decided that I was a planet and I was a planet.
  50. The crease
  51. I said no
  52. So I have a brand new set of markers
  53. Five
  54. I was a born a baby.
  55. Eighteen degrees Celsius Zagora No events Mostly cloudy
  56. The goat
  57. I cut my horns
  58. My anger is hope for my own righteousness.
  59. The coo of the common emerald dove is the sound of Venus.
  60. I have to live lest I die-live.
  61. It’s why I was born.
  62. Six
  63. I told you.
  64. How much of your body is your head.
  65. The trick to being funny by Aisha Sasha John.
  66. I couldn’t win with my brother because I was born.
  67. Thanks.
  68. I’ve seen stuff always.
  69. For you and all your siblings and friends and husbands or boyfriends.
  70. Seven
  71. I removed the snake ring.
  72. Pussy pain.
  73. The reassuring thing about life
  74. Psychic = Self-believer
  75. The year of being selfish. The year of being relaxed.
  76. I find the book.
  77. I get my power from pleasure. And I get my pleasure from pleasure, too.
  78. I’m on the back of something.
  79. I’m not dead.
  80. I’m not gonna die of love.
  81. I have to live. I’m married to love.
  82. Acknowledgements

What can I wear?

That will show my clavicle

But cover my tiddies.

Eighteen degrees Celsius
Zagora
No events
Mostly cloudy

It was as fake as most movies. I loved the final shot.

It was a puritanical film.

The conceit of the vampire author genius

Musician genius

Was heavy-handed

And stupid. Also,

Tangiers

Is not like that.

It’s January.

The water

In the pool

At the back

Of the auberge

Is cold.

Still,

I sit beside it.

I sit in a tent.

It is a square tent.

I am joined by a hungry peacock.

And then

I am joined by a

Large bandaged dog.

In a green pleated skirt I pass a forest of palms

The roads eyelashed in sand.

Children look

From my face

To my high-tops

To my face. I like it.

I get

What I come for.

Do I tell you?

The goat

He has to bray.

To pull his rope leash in the light.

He did it again in the black-blue sky

Of my leaving.

It is death.

He has to fucking bray

Because he is alive

And

Tied up.

I asked Fadwa what

A phrase meant;

It had hooked my bad ear and what

She said is it meant

You should be

Shy.

And then Manuela said my buns were horns

Were my tied-up

Sex.

I released them.

Je ne sais pas how to say this en anglais mais

My selves:

I suppose we

Gave me a course

Making our soul of a fitness enough

To scorn you

But not enough to

Not scorn you –

D’accord?

I cut my horns

And bray.

I’m not evil.

It’s true:

I saw a demon.

It was a donkey.

Loose

At the desert

Before dawn.

If I’m to be honest, I’m

Not even sure it was a donkey.

It was a demon.

I’m sorry but also

I’m not

Even fucking kidding.

My anger is hope for my own righteousness.

I have to be angry to have any hope of being good.

For anything to mean I have to

Be angry, i.e., sad

I have to

Weep so I don’t

Die.

The coo of the common emerald dove is the sound of Venus.

I love everyone I ever have and always will.

A performance called DON’T YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT I’M

DOING EVERY DAY!

I have to live lest I die-live.

R. says he wants to be here til 250, but

He’s young.

M. says by then he plans on

Being

Somewhere else.

I have to

Live here while I

Can.

When I die

I’ll just be

Me again –

And soft.

I was will

Have been

Born

A baby.

It’s why I was born.

I was named that.

I make it so that I like to.

I’m sort of damn good at it.

Anyway, I’m here.

Might as well.

Six

I told you.

The water is my special place.

I’ve been to the ocean and

I’ve been to the sea.

At the shore, the water greets me with its