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  1. Contents
  2. One
  3. Something softens me
  4. And a withering pear I can’t eat.
  5. Considering
  6. I have to live. There’s stuff inside of things.
  7. What is bread?
  8. In the dream
  9. I sleep in a room.
  10. In my nipple is an eye.
  11. I am in love.
  12. Dec 31, 2014
  13. Aquamarine and topaz
  14. Everywhere there are men, there are men
  15. When I leave here I don’t know where I am.
  16. Two
  17. I like it when we give the world to itself
  18. I can’t believe I agreed to go to work today.
  19. I fold in half
  20. One headline said 5 minutes early is on time;
  21. I am an angel but I respire.
  22. “The Bay Area”
  23. Advanced Adulthood
  24. What’s the big fucking deal about
  25. Today I could aspire but I want to nap
  26. Your yes, yes.
  27. Adornment is exaltation enacted.
  28. It’s Saturday. I meet you, get soft.
  29. I spread butter on the darkest rye
  30. My duty is to tend
  31. He thinks I should be glad because they
  32. His thumbs were
  33. Because I was being flown to Kelowna for a reading and he lives in Nelson
  34. Regardless
  35. Three
  36. In August I visited my Gran.
  37. Strong basic love
  38. Happy Cup
  39. I defer to you.
  40. Blood
  41. Rat vs. Lamb
  42. A beach.
  43. I was born and I lived
  44. I wore a mint-green Donna Karan suit in the Lincoln LS commercial.
  45. The landlord said he lost his phone.
  46. I want to walk the park with you
  47. Hi.
  48. I take a medicine.
  49. I decided that I was a planet and I was a planet.
  50. The crease
  51. I said no
  52. So I have a brand new set of markers
  53. Five
  54. I was a born a baby.
  55. Eighteen degrees Celsius Zagora No events Mostly cloudy
  56. The goat
  57. I cut my horns
  58. My anger is hope for my own righteousness.
  59. The coo of the common emerald dove is the sound of Venus.
  60. I have to live lest I die-live.
  61. It’s why I was born.
  62. Six
  63. I told you.
  64. How much of your body is your head.
  65. The trick to being funny by Aisha Sasha John.
  66. I couldn’t win with my brother because I was born.
  67. Thanks.
  68. I’ve seen stuff always.
  69. For you and all your siblings and friends and husbands or boyfriends.
  70. Seven
  71. I removed the snake ring.
  72. Pussy pain.
  73. The reassuring thing about life
  74. Psychic = Self-believer
  75. The year of being selfish. The year of being relaxed.
  76. I find the book.
  77. I get my power from pleasure. And I get my pleasure from pleasure, too.
  78. I’m on the back of something.
  79. I’m not dead.
  80. I’m not gonna die of love.
  81. I have to live. I’m married to love.
  82. Acknowledgements

Rat vs. Lamb

A beach.

The northeast coast of a country.

What happened was a man.

A man came.

Onto the beach and then

Another

Came.

He wanted to.

The day

Might have made me sorry.

I left, saw

At the base of a palm tree

A rat.

I was born and I lived

Swishing fluoride around my mouth with the others.

From various classmates, I stole

Blue scissors, a hamburger sharpener, ten bucks.

My mom found the ten bucks.

She beat me.

I’m sorry

The teacher told me to say to Mandeep.

So I said, crying, I’m sorry, Mandeep.

I wore a mint-green Donna Karan suit in the Lincoln LS commercial.

The makeup lady put concealer on my knuckles.

My husband

Was played by an NHL player whose mom was a white lady.

(He brought her to set!)

I got five grand, was nine

Teen, saw a Maybelline model

On the way back from the bathroom plus a flasher’s

Wobbling dinky:

“Happy Canada Day.”

I really like covering my head.

The landlord said he lost his phone.

The tenant she said call it.

He said I did, I did

And then the tenant’s boyfriend was like

I called you and a girl picked up and

Said it was the wrong number.

(And I’m like okay so it was the wrong number why are you even

Telling the guy that)

And then her boyfriend was like ya, I called it four times

She said it was the wrong number.

And then, then I was like okay. Hmm what the fuck.

And the tenant was like maybe it was your wife?

And her boyfriend was like no it

Was a girl.

So there’s a

Question there.

Also apparently the dog likes the cat

But the cat

Does not like the dog.

I want to walk the park with you

And look at the wondering people.

My neck.

My scalp.

I read somewhere that

It’s okay.

One kind of pork or –

Another kind of pork.

May I recommend the ones we

Already have?

Oh ya

I’m not coming because I don’t want to.

That’s why I’m not coming.

Three hundred dollars for a half-leather belt.

With blue fish on it.

I thought you said it was a novella.

My neck.

My wick.

A man keeps three decades of nail clippings in a jar.

Chartreuse or mustard

Solid or see-thru:

The loose, wide stripes

On a girl.

Purse blacker than her shorts.

Hi.

Chicken/egg.

I need to take a dump.

Part of me doesn’t believe it will work.

Who are people? Who are anybody?

It takes so long to know anything.

And it takes even longer

To know anything at all.

The pork chop is cold because I won’t heat it.

It’s breakfast.

It is breakfast.

I’m scared.

I take a medicine.

My sweet little

Coconut face falls.

The reds.

Pale yellow.

Screaming.

When I wash my feet at night

I’m cleansed of

Everything stupid.