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Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

“He rolled over on top of me and we moved together again and again and it felt so good I didn’t ever want to stop—until I came.”

Hannah grins, and begins to understand that the force she saw running beneath Cate’s mild exterior, although she does not have the words for it yet, is subversion. She is a girl with a rebel heart.

Cate’s house is an Edwardian semi-detached in Didsbury, on the other side of the Parrs Wood Road, with four big bedrooms and a garden. She has a mum and dad and an older sister, Vicky, who is seventeen and stalks the landing like a wrathful deity.

Cate’s mum is a nurse, pretty and round. She has long red hair which falls around her face and freckles scattered over her nose. She laughs a lot. She makes her own bread. Hannah has never eaten homemade bread before. Cate’s dad is tall and has a beard, and when he is around he plays music in the living room; he has a collection of old vinyl and plays Bob Dylan and Paul Simon and Cat Stevens. Sometimes, after tea, they put on music and dance in the kitchen. Cate’s mum is a really good dancer. So is her dad. Sometimes they dance close to each other, sometimes they laugh and kiss. Hannah has never seen parents touch each other before. Cate’s sister, if she ever witnesses this display, rolls her eyes. “For fuck’s sake,” she says. “Leave it out.”

Compared to her own parents, Cate’s mum and dad seem young.

Cate’s family vote Labor. Hannah’s vote Conservative.

Cate’s family have Zola and Updike. Hannah’s have Reader’s Digest and the Encyclopedia Britannica.

Cate’s dad does something with engineering. Hannah’s dad works at Christie Hospital as a security guard.

Cate’s family has olive oil. Hannah’s has salad dressing.

When they are thirteen, Cate’s mum becomes ill. She loses weight and loses her hair and experiments with scarves. Sometimes she comes to pick up Cate at the school gate, but Cate wishes she wouldn’t. She wishes she could walk straight past the strange thin woman with the headscarf and the earrings and the lipstick, who is trying too hard, whose teeth are too big in her face.

After a while though, her mother gets better. Her hair grows back, though a little differently, a little more thinly than before. Cate’s dad still plays music, but they don’t dance in the kitchen anymore.