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Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

Cate stays one night a week. Hannah looks forward to her visits, when they will sit and talk and laugh. She has asked Cate to be her birth partner, and Cate has said yes. It will take her an hour and a half to drive from Canterbury, two hours at the most.

HANNAH WAKES IN the night.

It is very late, or very early. It is four o’clock. It is the time at which people are born and the time at which people die. It is dark and she is wet—the bottoms of her pajamas are soaked. She reaches for her phone and calls Cate.

“She’s coming,” she says.

She feels the leap of her heart, the beat of her blood in her ears.

She is coming. Here, in the darkness, a new story is beginning.

Her girl is on her way.

London Fields

2018

IT IS SATURDAY, WHICH IS MARKET DAY. IT IS LATE SPRING, OR early summer. It is mid-May, and the dog roses are in bloom in the tangled garden at the front of the house. Lissa sees them as she passes, on her way to the park.

It is warm. She is dressed simply, in faded jeans, an embroidered peasant blouse. Her feet are in thin sandals, and she carries a canvas bag on her shoulder—inside it: good tomatoes, bread, Rioja, a goat cheese covered with ash.

As she enters the park, she pauses on the path, looking over towards the back of the big old house with its crumbling garden wall, the old tree beneath which they used to love to sit. Today, the grass beneath the tree is packed with people, the air filled with the scent of barbecues and cigarette smoke, the blare of competing sound systems. It looks like a festival for the young. She looks up once more at the house, at the open windows, at the distant, shadowy figures that move around inside, then turns and walks on. They have arranged to meet on the other side of the park—close to the pool—the side where the families go. Here the grass is quieter and still green. She finds a spot and puts down an old rug and kicks off her shoes. The grass is lovely beneath her feet. She is nervous. This meeting was her idea—she wrote to them both, on a whim, one morning from the balcony of her small flat in Mexico City, telling them she was coming—a rare visit to England, to London, for Laurie’s funeral, asking if they might want to see her again, after all this time. She was surprised, and pleased, when they both replied and said they would.