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Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

Cate begins to shake. She looks up and out at the room, but no one is watching her—the sun slants in through the window. It is still the same morning that it was.

She opens the email.

Hesther is sorry to have taken so long to reply; she has been away—traveling for work. It is lovely to hear from Cate after so long. Cate’s eyes travel hungrily over the words, down to the bottom two lines.

I haven’t seen Lucy for years, but funnily enough I bumped into her when I was in Seattle for work last year. She seemed really well. Seems she changed her name. I have her contact if you’d like it.

And below, an email address. A name.

She types it immediately into her search engine. And she is there before her. Dr. Lucy Sloan. Dept of International Development. University of Oregon.

Her face. The way her lip curls up when she smiles.

A relic from a different life.

Lissa

YOU MUST BRING DANIEL, SARAH SAYS TO LISSA ON THE PHONE and, in the subject heading of the email that contained the exhibition invitation, she put in bold letters—Bring Daniel! Excited to meet him.

In the end, in desperation, Lissa texts Johnny: Got a plus one to an art opening. Don’t suppose you’d like to come?

I’d be delighted, he replies, almost at once.

They meet at the tube. He is dressed as always in black with his black leather bag, but his shirt looks new, and he is wearing a smart jacket. He is freshly shaven and looks well. She is surprised by how happy she is to see him, to have him lift her hand in that courtly, gentle way he has. “Hiya, sweetheart,” he says. She has forgotten the soft Scouse rumble of his voice.

“You look good,” she says. “Very natty.”

“I’m working. Got a bit on Doctors.”

“Ah ha.”

“And,” he says, half apologetically, “I seem to have scored a season at the Royal Shakespeare Company.”

“Whaaat? That’s great!”

“Don’t get too excited.” He holds up a hand. “It’s small parts mostly, but then Enobarbus in Antony and Cleopatra. It’s set in Liverpool in the sixties. Don’t ask. They’ll probably mangle the fuck out of it, but hey.”

“But Johnny, that’s proper!” She finds she is unconditionally happy on his behalf.

“You’d be a good Cleopatra.”

“In another life.”

“What about you? Any meetings?”

“Not really. Actually,” she says, “I’m thinking of giving up.”

“Hush, child,” he says.

“No, really.”

“Come, come,” he says, taking her by the arm. “Less of that.”

“When do you start?”

“May,” he says. “Apparently they’re all very civilized, the Stratford group. Voice classes together every morning—that sort of thing. A year’s worth of the mortgage too.”

“Well,” says Lissa. “You deserve it.”

“So whose exhibition is this then?” he says.