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Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

A rhythm establishes itself. Once every two weeks Cate signs on at the job center, and once a month money lands in her account. It is not much, but enough to cover the small bedroom, and to buy cheap food—enough to allow her to breathe. She is pleased to find her needs are few. Hesther tells her there is a job available in the café in which she works, a bike ride away, on the other side of town. Cate takes the job. At the end of her first shift she is paid money from the register in cash. The first time is hard—she feels like a cheat. She tells Hesther this, and Hesther tut-tuts. “You know how much the British government spends on weapons? Besides, it’s just until you get sorted, until you get on your feet.”

It is easier after that.

On the weekends they go down to the seafront and drink cider and watch the sunset, watch the starlings stream in to roost on the skeleton of the West Pier, watch them cast themselves in great clouds of murmuration against the evening sky.

Lucy and Hesther are part of a group of young people who like to gather together at the house and talk—about capitalism, about hierarchies, about horizontal power, and the potential for change. They plan actions. Cate has no idea what an action is until, one dawn in late summer, Lucy knocks on the door of her room and tells her to get out of bed. Cate pulls on her sweater and sweatpants and they drive out along High Street, where Lucy stops the van and instructs Cate to sit in the driver’s seat. Which she does, nerves jangling, as Lucy covers her face with a bandanna and neatly spray-paints the word SLAVERY—the V made by the swoosh of Nike—on the front of a sporting goods store. Lucy jumps back in the van and shouts at Cate to drive, which she does—giddy and fast. She feels like Bonnie, or Clyde.

She begins to read again, different books: Chomsky and Klein and E. P. Thompson. She starts to join the discussions. At first it is odd to hear her voice in a group—it has been so long since she felt she had anything to say. She begins to think that Oxford, that place of power—that place she hoped would confer power onto her—robbed her of her voice, or rather, that she gave it away. Or perhaps, she thinks, it was only hidden. Perhaps she only had to follow the trail of breadcrumbs to find it again.