Back Expectation: a Novel
Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

“They’re here!” Tamsin calls to her husband, who emerges from a different room. Mark is tall, broad. His shirt hugs his frame. He looks like a commercial for a certain sort of manhood, a certain sort of success. He kisses Cate, fist pumps Sam. A watch the size of a small mammal grips his wrist.

“Would you like a drink?” Tamsin ushers Cate towards an armchair. “Water?”

“Actually,” says Cate, “I’d love a wine. A red wine. If that’s OK?” Her voice sounds odd. She has hardly used it today. “I’d love a small red wine,” she says again, giving each syllable equal weight, as though speaking a language that is new to her.

“Mark!” barks Tamsin. “Glass of red for Cate.”

“Coming up.” Mark moves towards the kitchen counter, behind which cabinets are lit from within, and pours wine from an open bottle into a goblet. He looks like a mortician, standing behind his slab, dealing in blood.

“There,” Mark says, bringing it over and setting it on the glass table before her. “Put some color in your cheeks.” And he laughs. And Tamsin laughs. And Sam laughs. And Cate laughs too, though at what she is not quite sure. Both Tamsin and Mark are deeply tanned. Their teeth are extraordinarily white against their skin. She remembers now Sam telling her—they have recently been on holiday. She can bring it up later, when she is at a loss for something to say.

“Antipasto,” says Tamsin, lifting a plate where meats and cheese and olives glisten in the bluish light.

Cate takes an olive and rolls its saltiness on her tongue.

Outside is a large garden, all grass; beyond it, a fold in the hills where the river runs. The Great Stour, the same river that runs behind their house—she knows this because they walked there together, she and Sam and Tamsin and Mark, when they came down the first time to get a sense of the area.

Let’s walk through the orchard! Tamsin had said. And so they did, the route taking them over the lane, past the wholesaler, past the cabins housing the fruit pickers with the numbers spray-painted on the sides, the dartboards, the mothers on camping chairs with their babies in their laps, watching them warily, the radios, the sound of Russian being spoken, then the orchard, which was simply lines and lines of trees. It was summer and the trees stood penned, grafted onto wire, their arms stretched in supplication, or defeat. It’s not an orchard, she wanted to say, it’s a factory farm.

“So how was your holiday?” she asks, turning back to the room.

“Oh, amazing,” says Tamsin. “We were in Turkey. All-inclusive. The kids loved it. They were gone from breakfast until dinner. Had the run of the place.”

“Where are they?” Cate has the sudden terrible thought that they have been left somewhere, forgotten.