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Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

“I’m not surprised. I’d have run for my life.”

“Did I tell you we danced?”

“Where?”

“Over there.” Sarah gestures with her stick to the silos. “We cut the fence, put ladders up, climbed over, and danced in the moonlight. It was New Year’s Eve. We made our own music. We danced beneath the moon.”

She is a witch, thinks Lissa, as Sarah begins to sing again, softly this time. My mother is a witch.

She wanders a little away, to where brambles crowd the path. The blackberries are ripe, and she plucks a handful and takes them back to Sarah; an offering held in her palm. “Delicious,” says Sarah, “thank you.” She has found a feather from somewhere, and put it in the band of her hat. “We should pick more. Take them home and make a crumble.”

They do so, Lissa lifting the brambles so Sarah can reach in and pick the darkest, ripest berries from the middle of the bush, taking the sandwiches she has packed for later out of their box and filling it instead with the glistening fruit. When the box is full, they walk on, through a small, thick copse, where birches and sycamores dapple the light and bracken is chest-high and the silos are invisible. “Ah, yes, this way,” Sarah says, “I know this path.”

They reach a tree with many trunks, and Sarah steps off the path towards it, reaching her hands up to it. “Hello, old lady, I remember you. This is where I camped,” she says, “just beside this tree.”

“I remember,” says Lissa. “I was there.”

“Yes.” Sarah turns to her. “Of course you were. For a short time. I always forget.”

They walk on slowly and emerge again into the sun by a gate. A section of perimeter fence still stands, a concrete panel set behind a newer fence. It is painted with serpents, with a simple green butterfly—they are crudely done, little more than daubs, but they have an eerie power to them. It is like coming across forgotten cave paintings. Beneath the rusted metal, green paint is still visible, flaking with sun and with age. The air feels close, the vegetation pressing at their backs.

“I remember this,” Lissa says, threading her fingers through the gate. Tarps slung up in the rain. Women’s ruddy faces. The smell of wool and fire and bodies.

“Thirty thousand people,” says Sarah, “hand-in-hand around the base. They came and dragged us from our tents. Told us we were unnatural”—she laughs—“as though it were natural to keep missiles of death on common land.”

“I remember them coming.” Lissa’s hands close on the wire of the fence. “Taking you from the tent. It frightened me. I hated it. You being here.”

“Why?”

“I thought I would lose you. That you would be shot.”