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Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

When the small tour has finished, the woman tut-tuts at Hannah’s jacket and boots, and outfits her in proper rain gear. When she is ready, Hannah laughs.

They go to the window and the woman points the way to a hunkered mound in the distance. “Come back along the cliffs,” she says, “that’s the best way. You might see the seals then.”

The track is muddy and rutted with puddles; Hannah walks through them, not around them. When was the last time she wore rain boots? A scrap of song comes to her and she sings out loud. A dog bounds out of one of the farm buildings, weaving through the fence ahead of her, trotting back to make sure she is keeping up, then running ahead again, chasing the swallows, who skirl and dive, loving the wind. Primroses stud the path and she bends and picks them, and then is unsure what to do with the picked flowers, stowing them in the pocket of her coat.

The chamber looks like nothing so much as a heap of rocks, almost indistinguishable from the shelved rocks around it. The entrance is covered with a sliding door. She feels a tremor of fear, but moves the sliding door away and gets down on her hands and knees, crawling along the tunnel before emerging into a small, chambered space. It is not dark—small skylights have been built into the ceiling—nor is it cold, or eerie, even; it is simply rock and earth and a deep insulated quiet. Outside, back through the tunnel, she can see the wind in the grass, the white spray on the sea.

She sits there for a moment, uncertain what to do. There is a scrabbling in the tunnel and a dog appears, coming close to her, panting. She holds him to her, feels his heart, the warmth of his flank. “Hey,” she says. “Hey there.”

Ahead of her, leading off from the chamber in which she sits, is a smaller, darker space. From here it is impossible to see just how far it extends. A flashlight lies on the ground and she reaches for it and switches it on, flashing it into the chamber, which is revealed to be small, but big enough for a person to lie within.

She turns off the flashlight, crawls under the stone lintel and lies on her belly, her cheek on the cold ground. It is strangely comforting—lying like this, she can feel her heart beating in her belly, her chest, the rush of her blood. The distant thump of the sea on rocks. The soft sound of the dog, breathing close by.

She thinks of the bones that were piled in here for so long, thousands upon thousands of them.

Soon enough her flesh will be no more.