People loved me. To the point of obsession.

And these weren’t kids, by the way. These weren’t K-Pop groupies giggling in kitten ear filters sucking on vanilla frappes – some were grown-assed people wearing wedding rings. One woman was even talking about having surgery to look like me.

Knowing that lifted my spirits briefly, taking my mind off my impending bad decision. The ‘Rhiannon Stans’ were causing a wildfire on the socials too. Some bragged about their ‘murderabilia’ – handfuls of grass ripped from the front garden at Jim and Elaine’s, gravel taken from behind the police cordon at the farm shop car park, and some ghoulish website was selling blood-spattered unicorn onesies because there’s a picture of me in one on some night out with the PICSOs on Facebook. Oh, I remember now – Halloween night. They were all witches and sexy pumpkins. I was a killer unicorn.

I miss that onesie. I don’t know whose blood they used for the onesies. Can’t remember whose blood I’d used.

It was like some mad genie had been let out of the bottle, like in Aladdin. And the magic was everywhere.

Over on Twitter, my name was still trending, as was #TheHuntForSweetpea – there had been some hastily cobbled together BBC documentary in the UK, all about the rise in female killers with moi as star attraction. The amateur psychologists were the best part as I read their tweets:

@johnnystaffs6382111231

This was a sensitive portrayal of a tough subject, handled well by the producers and writers. Actress playing Rinannon Lewis in the re-enactments was fenomenal [sic]. What an evil cow!

@MaryQuiteContrary291

I think love plays a significant role in her hate. Look at the murders that occur during the time she knows Craig is having the affair – her hit count goes up, significantly. And during her pregnancy where she says the baby is ‘telling her’ not to kill people – her bloodlust only intensifies.

@SamSmithIsTheyOK58

I agree. She killed the love she felt. For the boyfriend and for the baby. When she feels love, she feels hate because she knows it will be taken from her. I actually feel quite sorry for the lass. #SweetpeaForEver

@GrannyKnowsBest21905

Possibly around the time of the attack at Priory Gardens, love and hate became muddled in her mind. She lost the ability to feel either exclusively and struck at random because of it. It’s textbook.

@MamaCassHamSandwich @GrannyKnowsBest Rinanon didn’t strike at random – she made kill lists. But if you look at the genetics, brain damage, environment, you could see it coming. Her amygdala was damaged at 6. She was a powder keg waiting for a spark. Craig and Lana lit the spark.

@GillyTurner22

You’ve only got to look at her childhood to see where it all went wrong. Smashed over the head with a hammer, years of recovery, vigilante dad. It’s not rocket science. I think she’s amaaaaaaaazing. #IStandWithRhiannon