Back Counting Down with You
Chapters (64)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Praise
  4. Booklist
  5. Dedication
  6. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  7. Part 1
  8. 1
  9. 2
  10. 3
  11. 4
  12. 5
  13. 6
  14. 7
  15. 8
  16. 9
  17. 10
  18. 11
  19. 12
  20. 13
  21. 14
  22. 15
  23. 16
  24. 17
  25. 18
  26. 19
  27. Part 2
  28. 20
  29. 21
  30. 22
  31. 23
  32. 24
  33. 25
  34. 26
  35. 27
  36. 28
  37. 29
  38. 30
  39. 31
  40. 32
  41. 33
  42. Part 3
  43. 34
  44. 35
  45. 36
  46. 37
  47. 38
  48. 39
  49. 40
  50. 41
  51. 42
  52. 43
  53. 44
  54. 45
  55. 46
  56. 47
  57. 48
  58. 49
  59. 50
  60. 51
  61. 52
  62. 53
  63. 54
  64. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

“Gaslight?” Xander snorts. “Where’d you learn that word? Was it from your little ‘girlfriend’ over here?” He gestures to me with a wave of his hand. “I guess the tutoring is paying off.”

“Don’t bring her into this,” Ace says, his voice low, before he exhales and looks away. Under the table, I loop my ankle around his, hoping to comfort him in some way. A fleeting and barely there smile passes across his lips. He looks back up at his brother, expression weary. “I’m tired of this, Xander. You’re Dad’s favorite son. I know it. You know it. Can we please stop doing this?”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” Xander says dismissively.

“Don’t you?” Ace asks. “Ever since Mom and Dad got divorced, you’ve been taking it out on me. You turned Dad against me. It’s not my fault Mom left. It’s not my fault you and Mom barely talk. Stop blaming me for things that are out of my hands.”

Xander’s cool expression slips, his gaze suddenly heated. I shift farther away from him, waiting for the blow to follow.

“It is your fault,” Xander hisses. “She talks to you all the time and never gives me the time of day. And when we do talk, she only ever goes on and on about you. It’s always Ace this, Ace that. I told her I got into Yale, and immediately after congratulating me, she asked me what your plans for college were. It’s always about you.”

Ace stares at his brother like he’s grown a second head. “And that’s my fault? Why don’t you talk to Mom about it instead of trying to ruin my life?”

His brother sniffs with an air of disdain, but there’s a crack in his demeanor now, in the way he carries himself. “You always overexaggerate. I haven’t ruined your life.”

“You told Dad I wanted to go to Italy with Mom and acted like it was because of him. Dad hasn’t looked at me the same since! You know the reason I wanted to leave was because of you, you fucking asshole. Back then, all you ever did was pick fights with me over nothing. But instead of factoring that in, you let Dad think I hated him. Your relationship with Mom isn’t my fault, but my relationship with Dad is yours.”

Xander’s mouth thins into a straight line. “What does it matter to you? You have Mom. You don’t need Dad, too.”

My mouth falls open in disbelief. What kind of logic is that?

Ace seems similarly aghast. “What are you even talking about? He’s my dad.” He shakes his head. “You have no idea. Mom misses you. She tells me all the time she wishes you’d call more. But you’d rather spend your time ruining my relationship with Dad, I guess.”