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  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
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  52. Acknowledgments
  53. More from Jessica Redland
  54. About the Author
  55. Also by Jessica Redland
  56. About Boldwood Books

Sorry but I read your text. I couldn’t help myself. Last night you asked me to give you some time because I was ready and you weren’t. Now we’ve swapped positions and I’m hoping you won’t give up on me while I have some more head space. I really do care about you and I agree that we could have something amazing together. You have no idea how much I want to take that final step but I have to come to terms with losing the baby before I can do that. Sorry seems so inadequate. You trusted me not to let you down yet I’ve done just that. I won’t let your mum down, though. I still want to meet her and I’d like you to be there but I understand if you’d rather I give you some space. Tuesday at 6pm is fine by me and I can come to your house. Thanks for this afternoon. I can’t tell you how grateful I was to have you there which makes me feel all the shittier for letting you down. Sorry again xx

I read my text over and over. It really was inadequate. Massively so. But it was all I could offer her right now.

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Jemma

I stared at Sam’s text. It was what I’d expected. In fact, it was probably better than I’d expected and my heart melted that, despite his turmoil, he still wanted to be there for Mum.

The relief on Mum’s face when I said I’d secured a consultation for a second opinion negated any awkwardness I might feel at seeing Sam again. I’d be fine. Nothing had happened between us. We were still friends, exactly the same as before, and there was therefore no need for Mum to know about my feelings for him. I wasn’t ignoring the ‘no secrets’ pact; I was simply choosing not to talk about something that hadn’t happened. Or something like that!

✉︎ To Sam

Yes please to meeting Mum. I’ll be there but she doesn’t know what’s happened – or not happened – between us this weekend so please don’t say anything. Not that you would. I just need to say it, though. Feeling a bit embarrassed about the content of my text. Please forget about what I said and just focus on you and what you need right now. I hope you’re able to get some sleep tonight and that your family can give you the support you need. See you on Tuesday but you know where I am if you need me in the meantime. I’m still your friend assuming you want me to be xx

✉︎ From Sam