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Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. 1
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  18. OCTOBER
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  52. Acknowledgments
  53. More from Jessica Redland
  54. About the Author
  55. Also by Jessica Redland
  56. About Boldwood Books

It’s been 3 months since you left me all alone in our restaurant. When you ghosted me that first time, I’d never felt so lost and confused. It seemed like such a cruel thing to do, especially to someone you were supposed to love. Then I found out you had a wife and a family. If I’d been hurting before, it was nothing like the pain I felt at discovering our life together had been a lie. I did at least understand why you couldn’t continue with our relationship. You were living 2 lives and one of those lives had 3 people depending on you. As angry as I was for what you’d done to me and to your family, I never stopped missing you or loving you. When you turned up at the flat begging me to forgive you, I didn’t want to. You’d lied to me and your family and I shouldn’t need you in my life. Yet I did. I still loved you as much as ever and I believed you when you said you’d chosen me. I hated the hurt it would cause your family but I couldn’t let you go. Then you stood me up. You chose them and I understand why. Much as it breaks my heart, it was absolutely the right decision which, believe it or not, makes me love you even more. Maybe if you’d stayed with me that weekend, it’s the conclusion we’d have reached together. I hope you spend the rest of your life making it up to your wife, that you’re always there for your children, and that you never betray them ever again. I think you have the potential to be an incredible husband and a wonderful father. I’m only sorry I won’t get to experience that. I love you always but I need to say goodbye. I want to return the money you won on the horses as it obviously isn’t needed for our wedding. I’ll send a cheque to you at work and leave the payee blank. You can either keep the money, give it to the twins, or you can donate it to the hospital where they were looked after. I’d like the latter, but it’s your money so it’s up to you. Be happy. I’m certainly going to try to be xx

I read it through several times and nearly deleted it. He’d got his closure, though, and I hadn’t. Sod it. Send. Then I went to my bedroom and dug out my cheque book. Giving up the money was easy. Giving up Scott still hurt so badly.

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Jemma

✉︎ From Sam

I assume Drew was OK after I left. Hope his head isn’t too bad this morning. I’m available to talk about your mum when you’re ready. Sam x

✉︎ To Sam