Chapters (58)
- Cover
- Dedication
- CHAPTER ONE
- CHAPTER TWO
- CHAPTER THREE
- CHAPTER FOUR
- CHAPTER FIVE
- CHAPTER SIX
- CHAPTER SEVEN
- CHAPTER EIGHT
- CHAPTER NINE
- CHAPTER TEN
- CHAPTER ELEVEN
- CHAPTER TWELVE
- CHAPTER THIRTEEN
- CHAPTER FOURTEEN
- CHAPTER FIFTEEN
- CHAPTER SIXTEEN
- CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
- CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
- CHAPTER NINETEEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY
- CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
- CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
- CHAPTER THIRTY
- CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
- CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FORTY
- CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
- CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
- CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
- CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FIFTY
- CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
- RESOURCES
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
- What’s next onyour reading list?
She doesn’t answer me at first, just squeezes me tighter. I think for a half second that I’m going to cry, but this isn’t the time, so I blink hard and open my eyes wide and try to suck the tears back into my eyeballs before she notices. She keeps hugging me, and I focus on the ceiling, which is full of brilliant green glowing stars, because it’s easier than facing her.
I should feel relaxed, accepted, proud of myself for being vulnerable, excited that I didn’t scare her off. But I’m not. I’m antsy, freaked out, on edge, and the longer she doesn’t talk, the worse it gets. My brain spins out in a thousand directions, each one worse than the last.
She’s only being nice because she feels bad.
She wishes you would leave already.
She still hates you and can’t figure out how to say it.
“I should probably go,” I say, even though it kills me, even though I haven’t told her half the things I’d planned to.
She slips down beside me and tilts my face toward hers, brushing some hair off my forehead. “You could stay.”
Confusion etches lines across my forehead. “What?”
She takes a long, deep breath, watching me, appraising me, her eyes focused on mine. “I said you could stay. If you want.”
I smile before I catch myself, and then my stomach sinks. I know what this is; this is Gray and concrete goals all over again. This is pity. I shake my head. “I’m fine, Peak, really. You don’t have to babysit me.”
“Good, because I’m not,” she says, with just enough attitude that I sort of believe her.
“Why, then?”
She presses a kiss to my nose and pulls me closer. My heart is pounding, clawing at my skin to get to her. I wonder how she can stand it. “I like you, okay? That’s why.”
I bring my arm up around her, letting my fingers trail over her skin, trying to be cool, to be nonchalant, to act like my entire body isn’t on fire right now. “I like you too.”
CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
Jubilee
MY PHONE IS buzzing somewhere in the background, and I chase the sound back to consciousness with a little sigh. I roll over, half expecting Ridley to still be there, warm and drowsy, with his arms tucked behind his head, just the way I left him. But there are only cold sheets.