Chapters (58)
- Cover
- Dedication
- CHAPTER ONE
- CHAPTER TWO
- CHAPTER THREE
- CHAPTER FOUR
- CHAPTER FIVE
- CHAPTER SIX
- CHAPTER SEVEN
- CHAPTER EIGHT
- CHAPTER NINE
- CHAPTER TEN
- CHAPTER ELEVEN
- CHAPTER TWELVE
- CHAPTER THIRTEEN
- CHAPTER FOURTEEN
- CHAPTER FIFTEEN
- CHAPTER SIXTEEN
- CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
- CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
- CHAPTER NINETEEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY
- CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
- CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
- CHAPTER THIRTY
- CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
- CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FORTY
- CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
- CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
- CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
- CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FIFTY
- CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
- RESOURCES
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
- What’s next onyour reading list?
BATS: Hey, what are you up to?
PEAK: Lying on my bedroom floor having an existential crisis.
BATS: Uh . . . I think that’s my line?
PEAK: Is there some kind of existential crisis timeshare we were supposed to negotiate ahead of time?
BATS: Yes.
PEAK: I’m listening.
BATS: Wednesdays are reserved for my angst only, so.
PEAK: LOL
BATS: Oh good, you’re laughing. Now I don’t have to sue you for infringing on my official angst day.
PEAK: What days do I get?
BATS: 1am to 5am on Sundays, 3:30pm to 5pm on Tuesdays, Thursdays from 6am to 7am.
PEAK: Those are all times I’m sleeping . . . except for Tuesday, which is when I have a lesson?
BATS: Yeah, that was the whole plan. Sleep through your suffering or channel it into music.
PEAK: Why don’t you do that?
BATS: Because I have no self-control and am needy as shit. And yet for some reason you like talking to me.
PEAK: Stoooooop. You’re not needy.
BATS: . . . Have you met me?
PEAK: Once for a second, but I was distracted. You were v cute and nervous, and I didn’t hate that.
BATS: I was trying for manly and strong, but.
PEAK: Have you met you?
BATS: Once for a second, but I was very nervous.
PEAK:
BATS: Did you want to talk about it?
PEAK: ?
BATS: Whatever’s got you lying on the floor creeping on my angst allotment.
PEAK: Yeah, but I don’t think you would understand.
BATS: I’ll try not to take that personally. (I’m totally going to take it personally, though. So thanks. I’ll be needing that angst allotment back to deal with it. It might even creep into your Sunday hours tbh, but you brought this on yourself.)
PEAK: Ha. Okay fine. Do you ever feel like you’re not enough of something? Or you’re too much of something else?
BATS: Every day.
PEAK: What do you do about it?
BATS: Nothing healthy.
PEAK: Helpful.
BATS:
PEAK: No, seriously. What do you do?
BATS: Obsess over ways I could make myself more. Or less. Until I’m completely spun out and don’t know which way is up. It is not a method I would recommend.
PEAK: Yeah. Sounds shitty.
BATS: Astute observation.
PEAK: I wish you were here.
BATS: Me too . . .
PEAK: I should probably get some sleep. It’s late. Plus I don’t want to take up too much of your angst allotment. It sounds like you need it.
BATS: I appreciate that. But Peak?
PEAK: Yeah?
BATS: Whatever it is, you’re definitely enough. Like, exactly the right amount. I guarantee it.
PEAK:


