Chapters (58)
- Cover
- Dedication
- CHAPTER ONE
- CHAPTER TWO
- CHAPTER THREE
- CHAPTER FOUR
- CHAPTER FIVE
- CHAPTER SIX
- CHAPTER SEVEN
- CHAPTER EIGHT
- CHAPTER NINE
- CHAPTER TEN
- CHAPTER ELEVEN
- CHAPTER TWELVE
- CHAPTER THIRTEEN
- CHAPTER FOURTEEN
- CHAPTER FIFTEEN
- CHAPTER SIXTEEN
- CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
- CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
- CHAPTER NINETEEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY
- CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
- CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
- CHAPTER THIRTY
- CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
- CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FORTY
- CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
- CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
- CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
- CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FIFTY
- CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
- RESOURCES
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
- What’s next onyour reading list?
“I know you probably can’t forgive me,” he says, his breath puffing out in the cold air. “But I wanted you to know that I never spied, and I never would. I made up all of the reports.” He rubs at the cat scratch on his cheek, the little bag of Sprite and peanut butter cups smacking against his shoulder. “I like you too much to ever do that to you, which I know is messed up to say, because I shouldn’t be spying on anyone regardless, but . . . Here, though—at least take these and I’ll go.” He walks closer to the rail and holds up the bag. “I just wanted you to know that.”
“Why should I believe you?”
“You probably shouldn’t, but it’s the truth. I swear to you it’s the truth. I have the reports, if you want to see them. I wouldn’t . . . I wouldn’t do that to you. You matter too much to me.”
I should go back inside, go back to my room, hug my cat, and never talk to Ridley again. That’s what Jayla would do. But he’s standing here, looking wrecked, holding a bag of my favorite things, which I never told him about but he noticed anyway, telling me he didn’t spy and wouldn’t ever, and it’s everything I’ve been wishing for since that day in the rain and more.
The motion light clicks off—we’ve been still for too long—and the moonlight is just enough to make this moment seem magical.
“Come here,” I say, and I meant up the steps, but he jumps up and hangs from the railing instead, shoving his toes between the slats so we’re face-to-face. The light clicks back on, and it’s kind of perfect in a really strange way. I move my hand to pull him closer. He flinches, like I’d slap him, and my heart breaks. I would never.
“It would be so much easier if I hated you,” I say when he finally dares to slide his hand against mine. His thumb is rubbing over the top of my fingers, and it feels so warm on this coldest of nights.
“Does that mean you don’t?” he asks, and I don’t miss the hope in his voice.
“It’s actually annoying how much I don’t hate you. I can’t, not even a little bit, and I really tried.”
He’s trembling—from nerves or the cold, I don’t know—as I cross those final inches and press my lips to his. It’s nervous, tentative, but when his hand slides back to grip my neck, our breaths tangling like his fingers in my hair, we both smile.