Chapters (50)
- TITLE PAGE
- COPYRIGHT PAGE
- DEDICATION
- CONTENTS
- CHAPTER ONE PALMER
- CHAPTER TWO PALMER
- CHAPTER THREE COLE
- CHAPTER FOUR PALMER
- CHAPTER FIVE PALMER
- CHAPTER SIX PALMER
- CHAPTER SEVEN COLE
- CHAPTER EIGHT PALMER
- CHAPTER NINE PALMER
- CHAPTER TEN PALMER
- CHAPTER ELEVEN COLE
- CHAPTER TWELVE PALMER
- CHAPTER THIRTEEN PALMER
- CHAPTER FOURTEEN COLE
- CHAPTER FIFTEEN COLE
- CHAPTER SIXTEEN PALMER
- CHAPTER SEVENTEEN COLE
- CHAPTER EIGHTEEN PALMER
- CHAPTER NINETEEN PALMER
- CHAPTER TWENTY COLE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE PALMER
- CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO PALMER
- CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE PALMER
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR COLE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE PALMER
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX COLE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN PALMER
- CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT PALMER
- CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE COLE
- CHAPTER THIRTY PALMER
- CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE PALMER
- CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO COLE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE PALMER
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR COLE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE PALMER
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX COLE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN PALMER
- CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT COLE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE PALMER
- CHAPTER FORTY COLE
- CHAPTER FORTY-ONE PALMER
- CHAPTER FORTY-TWO COLE
- CHAPTER FORTY-THREE PALMER
- EPILOGUE PALMER
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
“Does this mean we’re friends?” I ask.
He shakes his head and grins.
“I need a friend, Burt.”
“You need something, that’s for sure.”
I smile at him for the first time and head back to my office.
CHAPTER FORTY COLE
CHAPTER FORTY
COLE
Just pick one.
My computer screen glows in a level that’s too bright for my hungover eyes. I don’t know how some people drink all the time. I feel like complete shit.
I scroll through the flights from Cincinnati to San Diego, opting to avoid Los Angeles, and Scott, after all. There are various options to choose from, and I’ve perused them all day. I just haven’t taken the plunge.
I’m operating in some weird state of limbo—unable to move forward, but I can’t go backward either. I’m stuck in Fish’s nice-ass apartment with nothing to do but field texts from my mother inquiring about my health and stability.
I lie to her. I tell her I’m fine. I tell her I’m out with friends and working on projects and making doctor’s appointments when, in reality, I’m just lying around and trying to distract myself.
But everything—everything—reminds me of Palmer. Movies all apparently center around a love interest, which I find annoying. Music lyrics are downright disrespectful. Even rap lyrics touch on a woman they want to be with, and it’s infuriating.
Can’t a man just get a song without a woman?
I get up and stretch out. I’ve put off booking a flight for the last four days. Why rush it now? What’s waiting for me in San Diego but a different, sunnier version of this?
My phone rings. I drop a hand and grab it, knowing it’s Mom with another angle to try to check in without being obvious about it.
“Hello?” I say with a note of sarcasm.
“Cole?”
I drop my arm to my side and perk up. “Ethan?”
“Yeah.”
His voice is rough. He sounds distant and hesitant, not at all like the boy I know him to be.
“What’s up, buddy?” I ask, my stomach in my throat. “Is everything okay?”
My mind races with a million thoughts. Is he hurt? Is Palmer all right? Did something happen? I glance at the clock. Who is with him?
“I just went for a walk outside,” he says, uncertainty riding in every syllable.
“Oh. Okay.” I scratch my head. “How’s baseball coming along?”
“It’s okay. We had a practice Saturday and another yesterday. Ted says we’ll probably lose a lot of games this year, but we can learn a lot.”
He said what?
My head steams as I think of the asshole who just took over the team—my team. Even though it’s not. How dare he say that to them?