Chapters (61)
- Cover
- Praise
- Dedication
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- From the Missing Journal of Candace Swain
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- From the Missing Journal of Candace Swain
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- From the Missing Journal of Candace Swain
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-One
- From the Missing Journal of Candace Swain
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-Three
- Thirty-Four
- From the Missing Journal of Candace Swain
- Thirty-Five
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- From the Journal of Candace Swain
- Thirty-Nine
- Forty
- Forty-One
- Forty-Two
- Forty-Three
- Forty-Four
- Forty-Five
- Forty-Six
- Forty-Seven
- Letter Found in the Journal of Candace Swain
- Forty-Eight
- Acknowledgments
- Booklist
- Excerpt
Candace was a neat person. She never left her desk a mess. She remembered where she put everything.
She looked in all three desk drawers; papers were disorganized. This wasn’t how she left her space.
She reassessed her room. Annie’s side was neat, as it always was, her bed made, three oversize, fluffed pillows covering half the bed.
Candace looked at her own bookshelf. The books were jostled, as if someone had pulled every book out to look inside and put it back without care. Her small bird-of-paradise that she had growing by the window had been knocked over: soil had spilled on the floor, but someone had righted the plant again. One of the stems had broken.
Someone had rifled through her things. Why? Why would anyone want to look through her stuff? And how did they get in?
She sat on her bed and didn’t know what to do. Suddenly, she was scared. She realized she couldn’t trust anyone, not her friends, not her roommate, not her teachers—someone had been looking for something, but what could they possibly want? Money? No, that was silly.
She stared at her overnight bag and felt the blood drain from her face. She knew exactly what someone had been looking for.
And who.
She grabbed her bag and her car keys and left.
Fourteen
Wednesday
Regan woke up early Wednesday morning to find her father already eating breakfast in the nook. It was one of Regan’s favorite rooms, and it reminded her of when life was less complicated, less sad.
“There’s plenty left,” John said when he heard Regan in the kitchen. She poured coffee, then dished up potatoes and eggs and sausage.
“And you said you couldn’t cook,” she said as she sat down.
Her father, who still preferred a physical paper to the internet, put his sports page down. He said, “Breakfast is easy. I can make you some toast.”
“This is good.”
She sipped her coffee. She hadn’t talked to her dad, not more than a few words, since she’d walked out on Monday night. “I’m sorry about Monday.”
“I know.”
“It’s hard for me to talk about it.” By it she meant the murder of her son. She didn’t want to say it out loud. That probably wasn’t healthy, but she didn’t care.
“Regan,” John said, “I miss him. It’s not the same as your loss, but I miss Chase.”
She cringed hearing his name spoken. “I know.”
“When you’re ready to find answers, I’ll be here for you. You know that.”