Chapters (61)
- Cover
- Praise
- Dedication
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- From the Missing Journal of Candace Swain
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- From the Missing Journal of Candace Swain
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- From the Missing Journal of Candace Swain
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-One
- From the Missing Journal of Candace Swain
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-Three
- Thirty-Four
- From the Missing Journal of Candace Swain
- Thirty-Five
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- From the Journal of Candace Swain
- Thirty-Nine
- Forty
- Forty-One
- Forty-Two
- Forty-Three
- Forty-Four
- Forty-Five
- Forty-Six
- Forty-Seven
- Letter Found in the Journal of Candace Swain
- Forty-Eight
- Acknowledgments
- Booklist
- Excerpt
“The pot was laced. Taylor brought it, swore that she hadn’t known, but it was either LSD or PCP or something really bad. Adele freaked out the worst and ran into the woods. Candace was the only one who wasn’t impaired, and she tried to catch up to her, but Adele turned, knocked her down. Then Adele jumped up, took off, and ran into a tree. She stumbled and fell down a short cliff. Her head split open on a rock. It was an accident, but Candace said everyone panicked. Even her—and Candace is pretty unflappable. But Rachel convinced us—I guess me, too, though I don’t remember—that we couldn’t say anything because our lives would be ruined. Rachel was hysterical. Said she would go to jail and lose everything—her job, her life—because she had given us the alcohol and let us get stoned. This was before pot was legal and we were all under twenty-one. She was an associate professor, so she’d be doubly punished, and we’d all be expelled. Rachel said it was an accident, and our lives shouldn’t be ruined because of an accident.
“That night Candace stayed at my side because I guess I was really out of it, and she thought I might need to go to the hospital. Rachel, Kim, and Taylor went to move Adele’s body. Candace said that she had always felt guilty, but that she’d met someone who knew Adele and now she had to tell the truth. She told me about the argument at the Spring Fling.
“Taylor told Candace what they did with Adele’s body. Kim’s family owns hundreds of acres in Payson. There’s an abandoned gold mine near her property, and they put her body in the mine.” Tears were rolling down Alexa’s face. “Candace wanted to find her, take pictures, and go to the police. But she didn’t know where the property was or how to find it. I gave her some ideas on how to track it down, and she went back to campus to use the library. She was going to inspect all the mines near Kim’s property to find the right one and then get the evidence and go to the police. She wanted to put Adele’s body to rest and give peace to her family.”
Mateo got up and brought back tissues for Alexa. She blew her nose, then wiped her face. He kissed the top of her head.