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Chapters (59)
  1. Cover
  2. Prologue
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Chapter Three
  6. Chapter Four
  7. Chapter Five
  8. Chapter Six
  9. Chapter Seven
  10. Chapter Eight
  11. Chapter Nine
  12. Chapter Ten
  13. Chapter Eleven
  14. Chapter Twelve
  15. Chapter Thirteen
  16. Chapter Fourteen
  17. Chapter Fifteen
  18. Chapter Sixteen
  19. Chapter Seventeen
  20. Chapter Eighteen
  21. Chapter Nineteen
  22. Chapter Twenty
  23. Chapter Twenty-One
  24. Chapter Twenty-Two
  25. Chapter Twenty-Three
  26. Chapter Twenty-Four
  27. Chapter Twenty-Five
  28. Chapter Twenty-Six
  29. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  30. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  31. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  32. Chapter Thirty
  33. Chapter Thirty-One
  34. Chapter Thirty-Two
  35. Chapter Thirty-Three
  36. Chapter Thirty-Four
  37. Chapter Thirty-Five
  38. Chapter Thirty-Six
  39. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  40. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  41. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  42. Chapter Forty
  43. Chapter Forty-One
  44. Chapter Forty-Two
  45. Chapter Forty-Three
  46. Chapter Forty-Four
  47. Chapter Forty-Five
  48. Chapter Forty-Six
  49. Chapter Forty-Seven
  50. Chapter Forty-Eight
  51. Chapter Forty-Nine
  52. Chapter Fifty
  53. Chapter Fifty-One
  54. Chapter Fifty-Two
  55. Two Weeks Earlier
  56. A Letter From Jackie
  57. Acknowledgements
  58. About the Author
  59. Also by Jackie Walsh

Cake, sticky tape, paper cups. I close the list in my head and continue down the street. It’s eight in the morning, the birds are done, their song replaced by the opening of shutters, footsteps, the odd greeting. ‘Good morning.’ ‘Terrible day.’

Moore Street is not the prettiest street in Dublin but it has a comfortable feel at this early hour. Traders pulling their stalls into position. Same stalls. Same positions. Fruit and veg, flowers and fish. The pungent smell from the fish stall forces me to hold my breath. I hurry past but the stench still manages to creep into my nostrils.

At the top of the street, I cross the main thoroughfare and enter the coffee shop on the corner.

‘The usual, Sal?’ Graham, the coffee guy, already has his hand on the barista machine preparing my order when I step inside. There’s no one else here but in an hour’s time the queue will be out the door.

‘Thanks, Graham.’ I hand him the exact change which I always have ready in my pocket. Then take my order and leave.

When the boys were born, I cut my working hours to three days a week. Perfect, time for everyone, including myself. But circumstances beyond my control forced me back to work full time. And even though I’d prefer to be at home with Tom and the kids, it’s not the worst thing. I get to put make-up on first thing in the morning. Scan my thinning closet for something fashionable to wear and put my feet in high-heeled shoes. My day is spent in the company of adults, though at thirty-seven years old, I’m regarded as one of the old folk now.

Elsie is sitting in the usual spot outside the shop front when I arrive. Everything she possesses packed into two bags tucked tightly on either side of her worn frame. For the last two years she has sat under the narrow shelter provided by a small awning jutting out from the salon. This is the spot where she opens her sleeping bag at night and dreams about having a roof over her head someday. Elsie never speaks about the circumstances that led her to being homeless. But everything about her suggests it was not always the case. Her clothes, her skin, her knowledge of which restaurants to visit and which to avoid. I’ve been tempted to ask her how she lost it all and to tell her I nearly did too. But something in her dignity stops me, tells me not to go there, just let it be.

‘Thank you, Sally,’ she smiles, her teeth still holding up under the strain. She takes the bag from my hand, immediately opening it to get at the coffee and croissant.