Chapters (52)
- Cover
- Dedication
- OCTOBER 2014 London, UK
- PART ONE
- FEBRUARY 1976 London, UK
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- FEBRUARY 1976 London, UK
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MARCH 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MARCH 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MARCH 1976 Lausanne/Bern, Switzerland
- JUNE 2016 Lausanne, Switzerland
- MARCH 1976 London, UK
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MARCH 1976 London, UK
- PART TWO
- APRIL 1976 London, UK
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- APRIL 1976 Oxfordshire/London, UK
- JULY 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MAY 1976 London, UK
- JULY 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MAY 1976 London, UK
- JULY 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- JUNE 1976 London, UK
- JULY 2016 Lausanne/Montreux, Switzerland
- JUNE 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- JULY 2016 Thun/Reichenbach, Switzerland
- JULY 1976 London, UK
- AUGUST 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- PART THREE
- AUGUST 1976 London, UK
- AUGUST 2016 Lausanne, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- AUGUST 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- AUGUST 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- AUGUST 2016 Montreux/Lutry, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- AUGUST 2016 Lutry, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- AUGUST 2016 Lutry, Switzerland
- OCTOBER 1976 London, UK
- AUGUST 2016 Vevey, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 2016 London, UK
- Author’s Note
- Acknowledgements
- More from the Author
- About the Author
‘And then when we happened to give birth at the same time, in the same hospital, it felt like fate, I suppose.’
‘Fate?’
She looks at me and I see tears running down her face. ‘I’ve been so worried,’ she says.
‘About what?’ I don’t think I want to know. Dread is thumping in my chest.
‘Worried that you’ll hate me when you find out…’
I take a breath. ‘Find out what?
‘That it was me. That I swapped you with Sylvia’s baby.’
SEPTEMBER 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
SYLVIA
She heard the cries before she saw they were coming from Anna. The sound she was making was animalistic, as though generated by her very soul. Sylvia walked as quickly as her day-old wound would allow and turned the corner to see Anna, hands on the glass wall of the nursery, Evelyne by her side.
Sylvia reached them and put her hand on Anna’s shoulder as the girl’s legs seemed to give way and she collapsed to the floor. Sylvia looked through the glass into the nursery and saw only one baby instead of two in the row both their daughters had been in, and her stomach dropped.
‘What’s happened? Where’s Anna’s baby?’ she said to Evelyne.
Evelyne put a hand out, a steadying gesture. ‘It’s okay. It’s not what you think. She’s been transferred to intensive care because she’s got a mild respiratory infection, but it’s just a precaution because she’s premature. The doctors have assured me the baby’s going to be just fine. I keep telling her, but she won’t listen.’ She looked at Anna, as though she didn’t know what to do with her.
Sylvia crouched down and put a hand on Anna’s arm. The girl looked up and the expression Sylvia saw there was desperate. ‘She’s going to be fine,’ Sylvia said. ‘I know it. They’ll both be okay, these babies of ours.’ She squeezed Anna’s arm, as though to impart some of the strength she felt, some of the faith she had in their futures, such a new feeling she almost didn’t know what to do with it.
Uncomprehending, Anna looked into her face as if she was searching for something, but Sylvia didn’t know what. Help? Reassurance? Anna put her hand on hers and said something in German. It was a rare word Sylvia recognised, but she thought she’d misheard because she didn’t understand why Anna would say it.
‘What did she say?’ She looked up at Evelyne, who shrugged, bewildered.
‘She said “I’m sorry”. But I have no idea what for.’
Evelyne said something to Anna, but she only shook her head, crying like her heart was breaking.
It took three nurses to persuade her back to her bed.
AUGUST 2016 Lutry, Switzerland
JESS