Chapters (52)
- Cover
- Dedication
- OCTOBER 2014 London, UK
- PART ONE
- FEBRUARY 1976 London, UK
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- FEBRUARY 1976 London, UK
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MARCH 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MARCH 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MARCH 1976 Lausanne/Bern, Switzerland
- JUNE 2016 Lausanne, Switzerland
- MARCH 1976 London, UK
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MARCH 1976 London, UK
- PART TWO
- APRIL 1976 London, UK
- JUNE 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- APRIL 1976 Oxfordshire/London, UK
- JULY 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MAY 1976 London, UK
- JULY 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- MAY 1976 London, UK
- JULY 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- JUNE 1976 London, UK
- JULY 2016 Lausanne/Montreux, Switzerland
- JUNE 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- JULY 2016 Thun/Reichenbach, Switzerland
- JULY 1976 London, UK
- AUGUST 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- PART THREE
- AUGUST 1976 London, UK
- AUGUST 2016 Lausanne, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- AUGUST 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- AUGUST 2016 Montreux, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- AUGUST 2016 Montreux/Lutry, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- AUGUST 2016 Lutry, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 1976 Lausanne, Switzerland
- AUGUST 2016 Lutry, Switzerland
- OCTOBER 1976 London, UK
- AUGUST 2016 Vevey, Switzerland
- SEPTEMBER 2016 London, UK
- Author’s Note
- Acknowledgements
- More from the Author
- About the Author
I have to wait for a quiet moment one sunny mid-week morning to sneak back into Julia and Michel’s bedroom. Maria won’t be round until 2pm. Léa and Luca are outside in the garden. I know I don’t have long before I’ll have to be out there breaking up a squabble or tending to a mild injury. But that’s okay, because I don’t intend to be long. I know what I want.
September eighteenth. That’s when Léa said Julia’s birthday was when I asked her. Couldn’t remember how old she was though. Part of me feels relieved. But the other part feels an ominous sense of foreboding. Okay, so we don’t share a birthday, but we’re only two weeks apart – or could be, if Julia’s my age.
I go straight for the drawer and slide it open. I riffle through the contents until I get to the folder I saw before. I open it, flick through the papers and take out the marriage certificate. Their ages are written next to their names: Julia Sarah Meier, 26; Michel Jean-Pierre Chevalley, 29. I quickly do the maths and my stomach plunges to realise that yes, she’s my age. Julia will be forty in September – just two weeks after me. I put the marriage certificate back and take out the letter from A. Meier that I found last time. Could this be Julia’s mother? I unfold the paper and run my hand over the ink. I can’t understand a word but the handwriting is beautiful. I copy the address into my journal. Hopfenweg 31, Thun. It’s dated 2004. She’s probably long gone.
My phone pings and I jump like a rabbit at a gun, my elbow knocking into the dressing table. One of Julia’s necklaces falls off the side of the mirror onto the wooden top. A bead smashes. Shit. My heart races as I wait, listening, hoping no footsteps are coming down the hall. But there’s nothing. I take my phone out of my back pocket and open the message.
Hola guapa. Hope you’re dealing ok with all your crazy shit. I’m playing with my band at a jazz club in Lausanne on Thursday night. If you can get away, come?
Bloody Jorge. Is he psychic? Can he sense I’m in here? My shame rises as though he’s caught me all over again.