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Contents (57)
  1. Prologue
  2. One
  3. Two
  4. Three
  5. Four
  6. Five
  7. Six
  8. Seven
  9. Eight
  10. Nine
  11. Ten
  12. Eleven
  13. Twelve
  14. Thirteen
  15. Fourteen
  16. Fifteen
  17. Sixteen
  18. Seventeen
  19. Eighteen
  20. Nineteen
  21. Twenty
  22. Twenty-One
  23. Twenty-Two
  24. Twenty-Three
  25. Twenty-Four
  26. Twenty-Five
  27. Twenty-Six
  28. Twenty-Seven
  29. Twenty-Eight
  30. Twenty-Nine
  31. Thirty
  32. Thirty-One
  33. Thirty-Two
  34. Thirty-Three
  35. Thirty-Four
  36. Thirty-Five
  37. Thirty-Six
  38. Thirty-Seven
  39. Thirty-Eight
  40. Thirty-Nine
  41. Forty
  42. Forty-One
  43. Forty-Two
  44. Forty-Three
  45. Forty-Four
  46. Forty-Five
  47. Forty-Six
  48. Forty-Seven
  49. Forty-Eight
  50. Forty-Nine
  51. Fifty
  52. Fifty-One
  53. Fifty-Two
  54. Fifty-Three
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. About the Author
  57. Also by Sharon Gosling

‘I think,’ Rachel told him, ‘that you really need to establish some boundaries where your ex-wife is concerned.’

‘Believe me,’ he said. ‘I know. Maybe while we’re up there on the coast I can conveniently drop my phone in the sea and just not tell her my new number?’

She’d laughed at that.

‘Are you sure you don’t fancy a trip away from the lighthouse?’ Toby asked. ‘When was the last time you got out of the village?’

Rachel had considered and realized that the furthest she’d been for at least six months was Great Dunbar. This came as a shock – there had been a time when her life had been a constantly changing sequence of different places. She’d liked that aspect of her transitory life, her constant observation of different landscapes, not to mention the knowledge that tomorrow she could move on and leave whatever worries had accumulated in a place behind with it.

‘You’re right,’ she said, before she could say no a second time. ‘I’d love to come, thank you.’

It had been the right decision. They’d talked and laughed, and for the first time since Cullen’s death and the conundrum of the camera obscura, Rachel realized that the worries that accompanied all her days had receded into the background, at least for a while.

‘I haven’t asked you how the book’s going recently,’ Rachel said, as the waitress arrived with their dessert.

‘Well, I’ve written about forty thousand words so far,’ Toby said, ‘and I suppose the good news is that about five thousand of them aren’t entirely terrible.’

‘I’m sure it’s far better than you think it is. Have you let Sylvie see it yet?’ Rachel asked, and then laughed as he gave an elaborate mock shudder.

‘God, no.’ A slight frown settled on Toby’s face and he picked up his fork, toying with it despite his dessert being long since finished. ‘I think one of the problems is knowing that if I do actually do this – if I do actually write my memoirs – I’m going to have to write about something I’ve always avoided putting down on paper. I just don’t know how I’m going to do that, or if I will ever want to. But without it, it’s incomplete.’ He seemed far away for a moment. ‘It’s something that happened right at the beginning of my career. I’ve been trying to put it into words for literally years – decades, now, actually. And the fact that I’ve never been able to…’ he stopped.

‘Tell me now,’ she said. ‘Tell me about it now, in exactly the same way as we’ve been talking about nothing all evening.’

He looked at her and then at her empty coffee cup. ‘Let’s walk some more,’ he said. ‘I’d like to see the village one more time before we leave, wouldn’t you?’

Outside, the wind had turned brisk and the tide was in, rolling high against the sea wall that formed the only path through the village. The sun was dropping towards the horizon, burnishing the steep cliffs and the flashes of the sea birds’ wings as they swooped and dove above their heads. Toby was quiet as they passed the tiny cottage on the sea wall called the Fishergirl’s Luck. Eventually they reached the two benches set against the cliff right at the end of the village and sat looking back along the path, with Gardenstown spilling down towards the water across the bay.