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Contents ( 57)
  1. Prologue
  2. One
  3. Two
  4. Three
  5. Four
  6. Five
  7. Six
  8. Seven
  9. Eight
  10. Nine
  11. Ten
  12. Eleven
  13. Twelve
  14. Thirteen
  15. Fourteen
  16. Fifteen
  17. Sixteen
  18. Seventeen
  19. Eighteen
  20. Nineteen
  21. Twenty
  22. Twenty-One
  23. Twenty-Two
  24. Twenty-Three
  25. Twenty-Four
  26. Twenty-Five
  27. Twenty-Six
  28. Twenty-Seven
  29. Twenty-Eight
  30. Twenty-Nine
  31. Thirty
  32. Thirty-One
  33. Thirty-Two
  34. Thirty-Three
  35. Thirty-Four
  36. Thirty-Five
  37. Thirty-Six
  38. Thirty-Seven
  39. Thirty-Eight
  40. Thirty-Nine
  41. Forty
  42. Forty-One
  43. Forty-Two
  44. Forty-Three
  45. Forty-Four
  46. Forty-Five
  47. Forty-Six
  48. Forty-Seven
  49. Forty-Eight
  50. Forty-Nine
  51. Fifty
  52. Fifty-One
  53. Fifty-Two
  54. Fifty-Three
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. About the Author
  57. Also by Sharon Gosling

‘Okay,’ he said.

She blinked. ‘Okay?’

He shrugged. ‘Sure. If it’s not what you want, that’s fine. But we’re going to have to work out what you’re going to do instead, so why don’t you and me sit down and have a chat about that, all right?’

Gilly frowned, as if she had been prepared for a fight and now that she wasn’t going to get one she wasn’t sure what to do. After a moment she stepped back and let him in, sitting on the edge of her bed while he arranged himself at her desk.

‘Come on then. What’s your plan?’ he asked, leaning forward on the small chair and clasping his hands between his knees.

Gilly sniffed. ‘I thought I could get a job at the Co-op. If I pass my Highers—’

‘You will.’

‘If I pass them, that should be enough.’

Ezra nodded. ‘What if there aren’t any jobs going at the Co-op?’

Gilly shrugged. ‘There’s the filling station on the main road. They’re always looking for people to work overnight.’

‘Well, that does sound like fun.’

‘Or there’s the pub.’

‘You’re going to go and work for someone who sacked you once?’

‘He didn’t sack me,’ Gilly said. ‘I was never really working there, not officially. And maybe he’ll feel like he owes me another chance, especially now all the stuff about that McCreedy cow has come out. Anyway, if none of those places need me, I can find something in Great Dunbar, can’t I? They’re building that new shopping centre out by the industrial estate, there’ll be loads of jobs going there.’

‘All right. What about your art?’

‘I can still do that. I’ll be working proper hours so I can pay rent and buy my own materials. I can work and I can carry on learning with Edie. Then maybe when I’ve got better at it, I can sell my work online, the way she does.’ She looked pleased with herself. ‘I’ve thought this out, Ezra. I know what I’m doing.’

‘I can see that,’ Ezra agreed. ‘But something’s changed, Gilly, and Edie and I don’t understand what. You and I, only a few weeks ago, had a chat about all the different techniques you were looking forward to learning when you went to college. Back then you were still planning to go. What happened to change that?’

Gilly’s face darkened and she looked away. ‘Nothing. I just don’t want to.’

Ezra raised his hands. ‘And that’s fine. It’s your decision. No one’s going to make you do something you really don’t want to do. But equally, I don’t want you not to do something you want to do because of some problem we don’t know about. Talk to me. What changed?’

Gilly was quiet for a long time. ‘I didn’t think about how I’d have to live somewhere else,’ she said eventually. ‘I mean… At first it seemed so unlikely that it was even going to actually happen…’

Ezra shifted in his chair, trying to understand. ‘I see.’