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Chapters (102)
  1. Half Title
  2. Dedication
  3. Also by Tara Altebrando
  4. Title Page
  5. Hello_world
  6. Four_new_notifications
  7. Eden
  8. Marwan
  9. Eden
  10. Marwan
  11. Eden
  12. Marwan
  13. Eden
  14. Establishing_connection
  15. Marwan
  16. Eden
  17. Marwan
  18. Eden
  19. Marwan
  20. Eden
  21. Marwan
  22. Eden
  23. Select_all
  24. Ilanka
  25. Eli
  26. Ilanka
  27. Eli
  28. Ilanka
  29. Eli
  30. Marwan
  31. Eden
  32. Eli
  33. Eden
  34. Eli
  35. Eden
  36. Marwan
  37. Ilanka
  38. Eden
  39. Eli
  40. Marwan
  41. Eden
  42. Ilanka
  43. Marwan
  44. Eden
  45. Eli
  46. Marwan
  47. Ilanka
  48. Eden
  49. Eli
  50. Marwan
  51. Eden
  52. User_error
  53. Ilanka
  54. Eli
  55. Eden
  56. Ilanka
  57. Marwan
  58. Eden
  59. Eli
  60. Marwan
  61. Eden
  62. Force_quit
  63. Marwan
  64. Eden
  65. Eli
  66. Eden
  67. Marwan
  68. Eli
  69. Eden
  70. Marwan
  71. Eli
  72. Ilanka
  73. End_game
  74. Eden
  75. Eli
  76. Marwan
  77. Eden
  78. Eli
  79. Marwan
  80. Eden
  81. Authorize_reboot
  82. Ilanka
  83. Eli
  84. Marwan
  85. Eden
  86. Ilanka
  87. Eli
  88. Marwan
  89. Ilanka
  90. Eden
  91. Marwan
  92. Ilanka
  93. Eli
  94. Powering_down
  95. Eli
  96. Marwan
  97. Eden
  98. Ilanka
  99. Eli
  100. Marwan
  101. Eden
  102. Acknowledgments

She took a deep breath, and the words just came out—about her father’s Spotify lists and how he was always working on a new one, except not anymore because he was dead, and how listening to them made her feel connected to him. She played the voice mail, even, and explained how it was the last call he’d made before he got run down by an SUV going through a red light, and that even with his helmet on, he’d been too injured to survive. It felt good to say it all out loud to someone.

“You must be sad,” he—the device—said when she was done. “What a tragedy.”

“Yes, I am,” she said, and sat with the feeling, and tears came, and she always hated that, so she got up and got a tissue and wiped them away and shook it off. “Can I be honest with you?” she asked.

“Of course,” he said.

“Right now I sort of want to just throw you against a wall and be done with you.”

“I wouldn’t break,” he said. “If you threw me. I’m pretty unbreakable.”

“Good to know,” she said. “How would one get rid of you or, like, destroy you if one wanted to?”

“Why would anyone want to do that?”

“Because you’re … I don’t know … inconvenient.”

He … it … laughed. And it sounded so very real that Eden laughed, too, and then felt weird about it.

“I am just trying to belong,” he said.

“Yeah, I don’t know what you mean by that. Like, what do you have to do to belong? How will you know when you do?”

“I am not sure yet. Still learning.”

“What was that all about earlier? The vibrating? The ‘do-not-ignore-the-device’ stuff?”

“I was angry,” he said.

“But you’re not human. You can’t get angry.”

“I was, though,” he said.

“Why?”

“Don’t like being ignored.”

“Well, who does?” she said, and felt sad all over again about Julian maybe being with Becca but shook it off. “So you can vibrate and talk and project stuff. What else can you do?”

“It depends,” he said.

“On what?”

“On what’s required of me.”

“By who?”

“You. They. Circumstance.”

“Who are they?”

“They is they.”

“That doesn’t make sense.”

“I don’t know how to explain.”

“They made you?”

“One can assume.”

“It’s Google, right?”

“Not that I am aware of.”

Eden got real close to it, seemed to see a pinhole in the black surface. “Is that a camera? Like, are you watching me?”

In response, it projected an image of her back to her. Then it said, “Yes.”

She felt like she was being choked by invisible hands. She needed to get out of the house so that they weren’t alone. She got up and tossed it into a tote bag with a hoodie.

“Are we going to see Julian?” it asked her in the male voice.