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Contents ( 109)
  1. CONTENTS
  2. ONE
  3. Sylvie
  4. TWO
  5. Sylvie
  6. THREE
  7. Thomas
  8. FOUR
  9. Sylvie
  10. FIVE
  11. Thomas
  12. SIX
  13. Sylvie
  14. SEVEN
  15. Thomas
  16. EIGHT
  17. Sylvie
  18. NINE
  19. Thomas
  20. TEN
  21. Sylvie
  22. ELEVEN
  23. Thomas
  24. TWELVE
  25. Sylvie
  26. THIRTEEN
  27. Thomas
  28. FOURTEEN
  29. Sylvie
  30. FIFTEEN
  31. Thomas
  32. SIXTEEN
  33. Sylvie
  34. SEVENTEEN
  35. Thomas
  36. EIGHTEEN
  37. Sylvie
  38. NINETEEN
  39. Sylvie
  40. TWENTY
  41. Thomas
  42. TWENTY-ONE
  43. Sylvie
  44. TWENTY-TWO
  45. Thomas
  46. TWENTY-THREE
  47. Sylvie
  48. TWENTY-FOUR
  49. Thomas
  50. TWENTY-FIVE
  51. Sylvie
  52. TWENTY-SIX
  53. Thomas
  54. TWENTY-SEVEN
  55. Sylvie
  56. TWENTY-EIGHT
  57. Thomas
  58. TWENTY-NINE
  59. Sylvie
  60. THIRTY
  61. Thomas
  62. THIRTY-ONE
  63. Sylvie
  64. THIRTY-TWO
  65. Thomas
  66. THIRTY-THREE
  67. Sylvie
  68. THIRTY-FOUR
  69. Thomas
  70. THIRTY-FIVE
  71. Sylvie
  72. THIRTY-SIX
  73. Thomas
  74. THIRTY-SEVEN
  75. Sylvie
  76. THIRTY-EIGHT
  77. Sylvie
  78. THIRTY-NINE
  79. Thomas
  80. FORTY
  81. Sylvie
  82. FORTY-ONE
  83. Sylvie
  84. FORTY-TWO
  85. Thomas
  86. FORTY-THREE
  87. Sylvie
  88. FORTY-FOUR
  89. Sylvie
  90. FORTY-FIVE
  91. Thomas
  92. FORTY-SIX
  93. Sylvie
  94. FORTY-SEVEN
  95. Sylvie
  96. FORTY-EIGHT
  97. Sylvie
  98. FORTY-NINE
  99. Thomas
  100. FIFTY
  101. Sylvie
  102. FIFTY-ONE
  103. Thomas
  104. FIFTY-TWO
  105. Sylvie
  106. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  107. QUESTIONS FOR DISCUSSION
  108. connect online
  109. What’s next on your reading list?

Mama staggers back then lunges for the steak knife, holds it in front of her with shaking hands. “Get out of my house. Leave now!”

I clutch my snow globe, dive beneath the dining table, then watch their feet shuffle back and forth like a mad dance accompanied by animal grunts. They hit the edge of the table hard. Legs twist and they both fall. The steak knife hits the floor, clatters out of sight. Mama’s lips are pressed together, eyes clenched as the bigger woman straddles her, hands around her neck. There are scratches like tiger’s whiskers on Mama’s cheek.

“Mama,” I whimper, “I’m scared.”

Mama’s eyes open. She bucks her hips. The big lady falls, they roll over and over, and then everything stops and Mama slides sideways, her back to me. The lady’s face rises like the moon. She reaches toward me. Her glove is covered in glistening red paint.

I crawl farther back, out of reach. “Mama, please move,” I whisper. “I’m afraid.”

The woman scrambles to her feet, boots slap on the floor. The door opens then slams shut.

“Mama?”

“Come out, little bird.”

Trembling, I crawl from beneath the table and try to pull her up, but she’s too heavy. So we crab-walk toward the wall and she manages to sit. The steak knife sticks out of her chest. I reach for it but she moans when my fingers clasp the wooden handle.

“Mama?”

“Put your head in my lap, little bird, and I will tell you a bedtime story.”

I do, even though the front of her dress is hot and sticky, smells like pennies. And then I wait for the story as the meat she put in the oven burns then turns to a crisp. I sleep off and on. We talk each time I wake and she asks me to leave, find a neighbor, but I refuse. At some point I realize that Mama is very cold and drag a chair to the thermostat, climb up even though I’m dizzy, and turn the dial just like she does when there’s a chill in the air. Then I return to her side, lie down until finally . . .

Mama says, It’s almost time to go.

Can we play questions first?

Oui. What is something no one can ever take away from you?

She asks me this every night before bed. First a butterfly kiss, then the question. You, I say and feel her smile.

If you live looking behind you, what happens?

You trip and fall down. Her laugh is a warm breeze, like wind chimes.

Why is it dangerous to answer some questions?

This is a new one . . . I don’t know.

The truth has two edges.

I look up at her. I don’t understand.

You will. Little by little the bird makes her nest.

Mama?

A man and a woman are coming up the walk.

My heart is a knot tugged too tight.

Let them in.

I grip her legs. I don’t want to.