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Chapters (50)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Philippa East
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Dedication
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. Chapter 8
  14. Chapter 9
  15. Chapter 10
  16. Chapter 11
  17. Chapter 12
  18. Chapter 13
  19. Chapter 14
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Chapter 17
  23. Chapter 18
  24. Chapter 19
  25. Chapter 20
  26. Chapter 21
  27. Chapter 22
  28. Chapter 23
  29. Chapter 24
  30. Chapter 25
  31. Chapter 26
  32. Chapter 27
  33. Chapter 28
  34. Chapter 29
  35. Chapter 30
  36. Chapter 31
  37. Chapter 32
  38. Chapter 33
  39. Chapter 34
  40. Chapter 35
  41. Chapter 36
  42. Chapter 37
  43. Chapter 38
  44. Chapter 39
  45. Chapter 40
  46. Chapter 41
  47. Acknowledgements
  48. Extract
  49. Chapter 1
  50. About the Publisher

A funeral. How could I not have even thought about that? Of course there will need to be a funeral for her. But if no one had missed her in all this time, and no one even knew she had died, then who on earth would be there to attend?

Images flash in front of me. The table set for guests who never came. The broken figure on the couch. And an email that clearly I have somehow imagined.

‘… I mean, if it was my daughter, or whatever,’ PC Delliers is saying, ‘Jesus, I’d want to be there, I’d want to know everything.’

She’s right, of course. Any parent would, surely, no matter what had gone before. Wouldn’t they? Even if there’d been a falling out, a rift? But I can’t help the thought flashing through my mind: Would mine?

‘I have to go now,’ PC Delliers is saying. ‘Thank you anyway for your help.’

And before I can say anything else, she hangs up.

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What happens next is that the police release a statement to the press. I hear it at home that evening, on the local BBC Radio London news. Charlie is in the bath down the hallway; I can hear him splashing. I keep the volume of the radio low.

The statement is very brief. Police are appealing for information, the newsreader says, about an incident that occurred at flat sixteen, Munroe House, Brixton. Anyone who knows the occupant or has a connection with this address should contact … and then there’s a phone number, and then that’s all.

They don’t even release her name.

I want to rewind and replay it, but it’s the radio and the news just moves on to other things and it’s gone. On my mobile, after I’ve put Charlie to bed, I scan the online news sites for more information, but there’s nothing else I can find. Waves of exhaustion roll through me, but if I go to bed, I’m not sure I’ll sleep. I sit for a long while in our cold kitchen, questions chasing themselves round my mind, and between them nothing but white space, blank gaps. The kind of blankness my mind can’t stand, the kind of not-knowing that could conceal anything.

At ten o’clock, I listen in again to the radio news, hoping this time to glean some new detail. Any tiny crumb I can learn about what happened.

But on this bulletin, they don’t mention the story at all.

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For the next few days, I’m left in limbo. With no next of kin, there’s nothing I can do. I try to switch off from it, concentrate on my own life. Reminding myself not to get involved.