Contents ( 80)
- EVA CARTER
- Owner Of A Lonely Heart
- Chapter 1: Gemma
- Sunday 1 July
- Chapter 2: Dan
- Chapter 3: Casey
- Chapter 4: Dan
- Chapter 5: Gemma
- Monday 2 July
- Chapter 6: Dan
- Tuesday 3 July
- Chapter 7: Gemma
- Wednesday 4 July
- Chapter 8: Dan
- Chapter 9: Gemma
- Thursday 5 July
- Chapter 10: Dan
- Saturday 7 July
- Chapter 11: Casey
- Monday 9 July
- Chapter 12: Gemma
- Chapter 13: Dan
- Tuesday 10 July
- Chapter 14: Gemma
- Wednesday 11 July
- Chapter 15: Dan
- Chapter 16: Gemma
- Thursday 12 July
- Chapter 17: Dan
- Chapter 18: Gemma
- Saturday 14 July
- Chapter 19: Dan
- Chapter 20: Gemma
- Sunday 15 July
- Chapter 21: Dan
- Chapter 22: Gemma
- Chapter 23: Gemma
- Tuesday 17 July
- Chapter 24: Casey
- Wednesday 18 July
- Chapter 25: Dan
- Chapter 26: Gemma
- Chapter 27: Dan
- Thursday 19 July
- Chapter 28: Casey
- Friday 20 July
- Chapter 29: Gemma
- Saturday 21 July
- Chapter 30: Dan
- Chapter 31: Gemma
- Chapter 32: Dan
- Sunday 22 July
- Chapter 33: Dan
- Chapter 34: Gemma
- Monday 23 July
- Chapter 35: Dan
- Chapter 36: Gemma
- Tuesday 24 July
- Chapter 37: Casey
- Wednesday 25 July
- Chapter 38: Dan
- Chapter 39: Gemma
- Thursday 26 July
- Chapter 40: Dan
- Chapter 41: Dan
- Chapter 42: Gemma
- Chapter 43: Dan
- Chapter 44: Gemma
- Chapter 45: Dan
- Chapter 46: Gemma
- Chapter 47: Dan
- Friday 27 July
- Chapter 48: Casey
- Chapter 49: Gemma
- Chapter 50: Dan
- Saturday 28 July
- Epilogue: Gemma
- Sunday 21 October
- Acknowledgements
- Owner Of A Lonely Heart
I watch as he uncorks the wine. His movements are fluid and relaxed, and time slows, fractionally, as though we’re astronauts floating in altered gravity.
‘Casey’s such a special girl.’
He nods. ‘She is. I hate it when she’s upset. If you hadn’t been here, she’d still be in her room and I’d be googling how to talk to your daughter.’
I haven’t told him why Casey was so scared of her dreams coming true: it’s her decision whether to confide in him. ‘You should trust yourself more. The two of you are getting closer, you just need to be patient.’
He hands me my glass and raises his. As we toast, our fingers brush against each other and now I wish time would stop altogether.
‘To Gemma, who came into my life at precisely the right time,’ he says.
I smile. ‘To Dan and to Casey, who came into my life at precisely the wrong one.’
We sip our wine – oh, it’s every bit as delicious as I hoped it would be. Although everything’s heightened after the brief touch we just shared.
He’s frowning. ‘About the bad timing . . . So I know this – us – whatever it is has come out of the blue, but is it really such terrible timing? You’re still grieving and I’m learning to be a dad, but what if that makes this the best time? When I’m with you, I feel . . . how can I explain it? Full of possibilities.’
I want to say: Yes. That is how it is for me too. But he’s still talking.
‘And it’s more than that. Before Casey came down here, I thought I had nothing to offer her except a place to stay. But that started to change from the very first time we bumped into each other.’
‘How?’ I want more, greedy to discover what we share, and why.
‘I’ve been trying to work it out. I reckon it’s because you give off this intense kindness. I do know lots of good people. My mates, my colleagues. But most of us have learned to be wary. You’re different. You’re open, despite all the sadness you’ve been through. Maybe because of it. And whether it’s the kids you volunteer with, or some random, ratty stranger who’s got lost, you don’t hesitate to do what you can.’
His intensity embarrasses me. ‘That makes me sound like an insufferable do-gooder.’
‘Not at all. You’ve got this glow about you. And it’s made me want to try harder, to be better myself. I’ve never felt like this before,’ Dan whispers. ‘When I’m not with you, I can be rational about the reasons not to get involved. But as soon as I see you, that flies out of the window and I start coming out with all this stuff I’ve never told anyone before.’
Shouldn’t I trust him too? Do it now. Cards on the table. And this – ‘us’ – might still work. Tonight I’ve seen Dan embracing being a father to a child he’s never met before. What if that same laid-back approach means he’s willing to welcome a baby too?