Contents ( 80)
- EVA CARTER
- Owner Of A Lonely Heart
- Chapter 1: Gemma
- Sunday 1 July
- Chapter 2: Dan
- Chapter 3: Casey
- Chapter 4: Dan
- Chapter 5: Gemma
- Monday 2 July
- Chapter 6: Dan
- Tuesday 3 July
- Chapter 7: Gemma
- Wednesday 4 July
- Chapter 8: Dan
- Chapter 9: Gemma
- Thursday 5 July
- Chapter 10: Dan
- Saturday 7 July
- Chapter 11: Casey
- Monday 9 July
- Chapter 12: Gemma
- Chapter 13: Dan
- Tuesday 10 July
- Chapter 14: Gemma
- Wednesday 11 July
- Chapter 15: Dan
- Chapter 16: Gemma
- Thursday 12 July
- Chapter 17: Dan
- Chapter 18: Gemma
- Saturday 14 July
- Chapter 19: Dan
- Chapter 20: Gemma
- Sunday 15 July
- Chapter 21: Dan
- Chapter 22: Gemma
- Chapter 23: Gemma
- Tuesday 17 July
- Chapter 24: Casey
- Wednesday 18 July
- Chapter 25: Dan
- Chapter 26: Gemma
- Chapter 27: Dan
- Thursday 19 July
- Chapter 28: Casey
- Friday 20 July
- Chapter 29: Gemma
- Saturday 21 July
- Chapter 30: Dan
- Chapter 31: Gemma
- Chapter 32: Dan
- Sunday 22 July
- Chapter 33: Dan
- Chapter 34: Gemma
- Monday 23 July
- Chapter 35: Dan
- Chapter 36: Gemma
- Tuesday 24 July
- Chapter 37: Casey
- Wednesday 25 July
- Chapter 38: Dan
- Chapter 39: Gemma
- Thursday 26 July
- Chapter 40: Dan
- Chapter 41: Dan
- Chapter 42: Gemma
- Chapter 43: Dan
- Chapter 44: Gemma
- Chapter 45: Dan
- Chapter 46: Gemma
- Chapter 47: Dan
- Friday 27 July
- Chapter 48: Casey
- Chapter 49: Gemma
- Chapter 50: Dan
- Saturday 28 July
- Epilogue: Gemma
- Sunday 21 October
- Acknowledgements
- Owner Of A Lonely Heart
We sit opposite each other, in seats bolted to the floor, so they can’t be used as weapons. His letter asking for a visiting order had been polite, even caring. He wanted to talk about the future and what Angelica would need from me.
I said yes because I’m so bloody lonely. Angelica has begged to visit me too, but I said no, because she’ll never be able to see me the same way again if I let her come here.
I pull my shoulders back, trying to match his posture. ‘It’s great that you want to help us—’
‘She’s had the baby.’
I stare at him. ‘It’s not supposed to be for another two weeks.’
‘Well, the baby had other plans. She was born the day before yesterday, and it was very dangerous, because Angelica is petite and the baby is big. But you didn’t think of that when you were taking advantage, did you?’
Dangerous? Panic makes the room fill with noise. Not like my mum. Not again. ‘But they’re alive?’
‘Yes. You have a daughter.’
The word ‘daughter’ makes the dingy hall fill with light. ‘And they’re going to be OK?’
‘For now, yes. But it’s the future I’m worried about. That’s why I’m here.’
Vaughn Parr is as relentless as my father. He starts off talking ‘man to man’ about how I won’t want to be burdened by a kid once I leave ‘the nick’ – the word sounds ridiculous coming out of his mouth.
When I disagree, he switches seamlessly into flattery. ‘You’re a bright young man who has taken a wrong turn. I’d like to help you with money for training, or a flat deposit? You’re not like the others here.’
He’s right, but not in the way he means. Unlike most of these guys, I haven’t been beaten or abused. I’m not an addict, or trapped in a cycle of repeat offending. Plus, knowing I’m going to be a dad has kept me out of trouble. Even the most violent lads see fatherhood as a badge of honour, showing off snaps of their kids, giving me advice.
‘You’d pay for our flat deposit? That’d be fantastic until I can get a proper job lined up. I’m planning to apply for carpentry training and—’
‘No. Angelica and the baby are going to stay with us, so Angelica can resume her studies in September. This mishap shouldn’t stop her going to university.’
Finally I get what this is. Bribery. I can almost hear my dad’s words: The rich think they can buy people like us, Daz, like we’re worth less than them. The trick is to set your price as high as you can.
‘You came here to bribe me?’
‘Don’t be histrionic. You like an easy life, don’t you, Daniel Lennon? Well, parenthood is not like that. Parenthood is about self-sacrifice and putting someone else first.’
‘I’m ready—’
‘No, you’re not. I can see through you. You’re a charmer, but there’s nothing underneath. My daughter could have died because of you, and she’s too precious to waste her life on a con man. You’re poisonous.’