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Chapters (25)
  1. COVER PAGE
  2. PRAISE
  3. DEDICATION
  4. CHAPTER 1
  5. CHAPTER 2
  6. CHAPTER 3
  7. CHAPTER 4
  8. CHAPTER 5
  9. CHAPTER 6
  10. CHAPTER 7
  11. CHAPTER 8
  12. CHAPTER 9
  13. CHAPTER 10
  14. CHAPTER 11
  15. CHAPTER 12
  16. CHAPTER 13
  17. CHAPTER 14
  18. CHAPTER 15
  19. CHAPTER 16
  20. CHAPTER 17
  21. CHAPTER 18
  22. CHAPTER 19
  23. RESOURCES
  24. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  25. ABOUT THE AUTHOR

‘We have to call her parents,’ Theresa said. ‘Does anyone have their number?’ I heard her call out to kids scattered around the yard.

‘My mum is a friend of her mum’s,’ Jamie lied. ‘She’ll drop her home.’

I don’t know how long I sat in Caroline’s yard in a mess. I managed to say, ‘Dad will kill me,’ as Jamie pulled me up.

He said, ‘You’re coming to my mum’s place.’ I kind of understood and didn’t resist. I kind of remember jumping in his mum’s car. The next thing I knew, everything was darkness.

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I woke with my mouth feeling gross, dry and sour. I could hardly open my eyes and when I did, I had no idea where I was. I only knew it wasn’t Caroline’s place. And then I remembered some of the night before, mostly the stuff with Trent. I felt pins and needles shoot from my head to my stomach – that was churning from the alcohol. And then I remembered the spewing and I felt like spewing again. I was busting for the toilet. And then I realised that I must be at Jamie’s house.

I slowly lifted myself up to sit on the edge of the couch I had been lying on. I held my head in my hands and breathed deeply, hoping that it would help my head from spinning. It only made the pinch in my bladder tighter. I stood gingerly and scanned the room, trying to gain a sense of where the bathroom might be.

Luckily, when I walked through the hallway I found that the toilet door was open. As I sat on the toilet I tried to figure out what I could do. I didn’t even know where Jamie’s house was – I could only assume it was in The Village. I didn’t know if I could walk home. All I knew was that I couldn’t call Dad.

I washed my hands and made my way back to the couch. I lay down and tried to relax, knowing it was all that I could do. Then I remembered how much I was spewing last night, Jamie holding me up, and I knew that Caroline and everyone else were going to pay me out forever about it. I pulled the blanket up over my head and tried to block it all out.

Then I panicked, thinking that someone might have posted footage of me spewing all over social media. I frantically searched for my phone and saw it on a small table near the door. I grabbed it and started checking out Matilda’s socials. If the evidence was going to be anywhere, it was going to be there. I think she’d take great pleasure in broadcasting a drunk Aboriginal classmate.