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Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

Her eyes flicked to me, then away. Bror sent her a look that I could not read. Now she was slipping from the room. Sound of bare feet on dry stone, the gentle swish of her shift dress.

“That was kind of you,” said Bror. “But unnecessary. Tell me, why are you standing here before me?”

“I want to know who you are.”

“Ah.” He considered this. “How very direct. Do you mean the Patriotic Order of the Temple Knight? Or do you mean the student who once knew your wife?”

“Is there a difference?”

“Locking horns with the priest.” He smiled a wry smile. “This is the job of the satirist, no? You are wondering if we are in some way connected to those men and their brutal acts? After all, we—and they—carry the name of the Knights Templar.”

“I have asked myself that question.”

“The Patriotic Order of the Temple Knight is a chivalric order, committed to honor and valor. With our young followers we meditate on the figure of the crusader knight, whom we consider the most complete embodiment of courage and honor. We seek inspiration from his deeds. But he is a metaphor. Which should be obvious. We are not literal knights and nor is he. We do not wish to rampage through the Middle East, spilling the blood of our Muslim brothers. Though we do have some very fine horses in our paddock.”

“And those other Knights Templar?”

“The—quote-unquote—Tactical Brigades?”

I nodded.

He shook his head. “These boys have a narrow understanding of metaphor: the gun is the lance; the boat is the horse; the refugee is the Saracen. They lack the intelligence to understand that this is a ridiculous proposition. But they outwitted our police. And their talk about employing children as actual soldiers? If that’s where we are headed in the West, then we know from other countries it’s a terrifyingly effective tactic, no? What decent man would dare to return fire, knowing his target was thirteen?”

“These men admire you. They quote you very widely.”

“We’ve taken down our websites. All materials. You can’t even google us now. I will not have these acts on my conscience.” A sorrowful look passed across his features. “I sincerely hope better people admire us too. What I teach—the praxis our true followers observe—is more akin to Buddhism or Sufism. Balance duty with pleasure. Take time out to breathe.”

“I still don’t really understand what you believe.”

“Cherish and protect those you love. Beyond that I don’t really care what my followers believe. It’s the praxis that counts. Live the good life. Know the consoling qualities of a good cup of coffee . . .”

“You brought me coffee on the day of the massacre.”

A sober look. “You really mustn’t thank me.”

“Still, it did console me a little. To know we were not completely alone.”